engravings. ▸ chae hyungwon

a beautiful muse.

I hadn't thought of this moment.
You standing right in front of me again. Don't leave me again, I beg of you.

The music blasted through the walls, shouts and laughter still being able to be heard even from a closed door. His back plastered against the door while her head fell, eyes staring at the remaining sips of her drink. It's been like this for 20 minutes, it was almost funny how neither of them decided to get up and leave. They both just stayed, waiting.

"This bathroom smells nice, I'm surprised." She mumbled, eyes scanning the small room she was sitting in. "

"No one really lives here, Hoseok's parents own the place. They offered to let him stay here while he studied but he stays with Shownu hyung. So he just uses the place for parties." The male spoke up, looking over at the soap container that was brand new, no one had used it. It could've been here for months if he thought about it.

"That seems a bit shallow? There's people begging for a bed to sleep in. He uses a house just to have parties?" She scoffed and shook her head before sitting up, eyes meeting with his.

"You always were worried for other people." Hyungwon spoke, Sol chuckled and gave a slight nod. "Why wouldn't I be?" The room went silent for another minute, Hyungwon cleared his throat before sitting himself down onto the floor.

"Minhyuk oppa told me about you a while ago, well I didn't know it was you at the time but.. I was unpacking in my room and he rushed in talking about some guy that he thought would be perfect for me.." She spoke, her finger sliding up and down the cup she held in her hand.

"I couldn't wrap my head around it. No way I haven't even thought about anyone like that in forever. It's been years. I declined but he was persistent. He said, 'You will change your mind when you see him.' I thought.. this man has to be crazy." She said and laughed, he even chuckled himself, he couldn't deny that Minhyuk has some bolts that need a good screwing.

"Then, I saw you. At the karaoke bar downtown. I didn't recognize you when I first saw you, I didn't think it was possible. I mean, six years? How much of a coincidence that he is here? The guy that would tuck me in during nap time at daycare?" Hyungwon felt his stomach twisting and turning as she spoke.

"But it was you, from the name to the eyes that I always admired. Hyungwon, I missed you very much and I don't know how many times I can say it but it's true." She whispered, it seemed as that last sentence were words that were said in her head but came out her lips instead.

"But you kept running away from me. I mean, am I a monster? Why did you keep running?" She asked and looked at him, her eyes carried sadness and confusion, she was looking for answers.. Just like him.

"I don't know. I don't know why I kept running." He whispered as their eyes melted with each other.

"I was afraid.. I thought maybe this was a sick trick that my head was planning. I mean I was destroyed when you left without a single word, I called your home everyday, I would go and wait by your door to see if anyone would leave or go in but nothing." The words finally came out of him, they just floated away into thin air, nothing holding back.

"The sadness turned into anger, I was angry.. I was hurt that you left when you said you never would. You abandoned me Sol." He whispered, the girl stiffened up when she heard his words. Hyungwon saw her body movements and he felt the tension from those words, maybe it was too much? No, she needed to know how badly she hurt him. She needed to know what she did.

"I never intended that Hyungwon.. I.. So much happened when I was young. I didn't have a choice. I never wanted to leave you, never ever." She whispered as she sets her cup down by her before sitting herself down next to him.