War of Thoughts

betrayal

No mention of him has gone by
where my heart didn't cramp
and my body didn't fill up with anxiety.
You don't even need to say his name
my imagination starts as soon as I know
that you've both seen each other
and that you've been drinking.
The anxiety doesn't get less
it just gets worse
because my gut feeling tells me
it's just a matter of time.
And I know my heart will splitter when it happens
and that a wave of disappointment will hit me
but I will be more disappointed by her than by him
because he is just a guy I met a few times messing around
but she
she is my friend who knew all along.