Change of Fate (Kellic)

Chapter 9

Kellins POV

Waking up in my mums arms was a welcomed change. Knowing i was leaving sometime this week i decided to stay put pretending to be asleep and make the most of her comforting embrace. However 30 minutes later when Cara came bounding in asking for waffles and waking the whole neighbourhood up with her happiness, mum assured her if she went downstairs to watch tv she'll be downstairs in a minute to make them for her. Leaving me and her alone with the memories of last night fresh in out minds. Realising I'm only wearing a t shirt, I'm feeling very exposed and cover myself with the blankets.
"Honey we've got to talk about this, alright? I'll go make some waffles and we can talk once we've finished eating" she said sternly but gently.

Eating those waffles was one of the hardest things because knowing my mum was going to talk about my self harming and bruises in a mere 20 minutes was torturous. After all 3 of us where on the sofa in front of the tv, mum decided to speak up. "Cara sweetie, do you mind go playing in your room please? Mummy needs to talk to Kellin" Cara nods and goes upstairs.
Once we see her disappear from the top of the stairs, it begins. "Baby tell me whats been going on." I just stare blankly at my crossed legs, not wanting her to know. "Can you please lift up your sleeves? We need to change the bandages anyway" i look up at her to see her with hopeful eyes. Feeling incredibly guilty for putting her through so much already, i reluctantly and slowly pull back my right sleeve, earning a gasp and a few tears from her. Looking back up at me as if silently telling me to pull up my other sleeve I do.

She reaches down with shaky hands and slowly unwraps the bandage around my left wrist, almost as if she's too afraid to see whats underneath. And let me tell you, if she thought my right arm was bad, she's going to get a shock when she sees my left arm. Getting down to the final layer she takes it off and a sob escapes her lips. Placing one of her hands over her mouth and the other one cradling my wrist she just sits there silently staring for a good 2 minutes.

"W-why?" she croaks out, obviously trying not to cry. I look down unable to tell her. "Baby I'm really worried, the scars, the bruises, the cuts, the cuts on your face, the cutting too deep. I just need to know so i can help take that pain out of your life kiddo" Is she still thinking about the bruises and my face. Shit. I need to tell her. Oh really Kellin, you think thats a good idea? She's just gonna leave you all alone, ship you back to your dads not caring about you at all. Secretly hoping you die. No she wouldn't, she loves me. Ugh! Here we go again, how many times do i have to tell you she doesn't love you! NO ONE LOVES YOU! PATHETIC. I grip my hair again, mum rubbing my back over the still fresh whip lashes. They're going to take a while to heal up.
"I-i-i c-cant do it m-mum.." i let out shakily, sobs already forming in my throat. "I c-cant go back t-to him, p-please dont make m-me go back" I cry out, finally letting everything go.
"Sweetheart what are you talking about?" She sits closer still rubbing my back.
"H-hes going to kill m-me for telling but i just c-cant do it anymore" i cry out even harder this time.
"Who baby? who's doing this?" She asks getting seriously concerned. i shake my head, unable to form the word. "Please Kellin, i need to know"
"d-d-dad" I full on break down, unable to breathe, mum pulls me into her lap and leans back on the sofa putting her arms tightly around my violently shaking body and whispering for me to breathe and calm down.

After 20 minutes of hyperventilation and dizzy spells from lack of oxygen, i decide i want some water so standing up spontaneously, i receive a head rush and my mum infront of me with her arms either side of my shoulders giving me support. Once she can tell i'm not so dizzy she releases her hands from my shoulders and places them over my checks, lifting my head up to look at her instead of the floor.
She has never looked so serious in her entire life, and to be honest its really scaring me. "Kellin, is your father abusing you?" I just start to sob gently, her giving me a sympathetic look but repeating her question in the same tone of voice. "Kellin, i need a clear yes or no, is your father abusing you?"
"y-yes" i say ever so quietly i'd be surprised if she hears me. But she does and straight away i'm crying into her neck. Placing her hand on the back of my neck stroking my hair.
Noticing me calm down she pulls away and asks the dreaded question, "Take off your shirt" well actually more like told me rather than asked. However i do as she says, wincing a little when i get down to taking my t shirt off and peeling it off the lashes on my back. Thankfully the bruising has calmed down ever so slightly but my ribs are black and blue, my stomach has scars from deep gashes when he decided kicking wasn't enough and my shoulders had nail marks in them because he always likes to use my shoulders to pin me to the wall.
Mum sighs sympathetically with a pained expression on her face. "Come on, lets go to the bathroom to put some fresh bandages on your arms to start off with." she says sweetly to me. I nod sniffling a little from my huge breakdown earlier.

I turn around to go to the bathroom, i try to take my first step however I'm stopped when she sees the lashes, and having pretty much the same reaction as vic, maybe a little more crying from her though, she has cleaned and bandaged my wrist and back and put some cream on the cuts on my face. Guiding me through to the sofa she sits me down in a fragile and weak state, noticing how much I'm clinging onto her as she sits me down and kisses me on my forehead. "Im going to choose a movie, and get your duvet okay sweetheart?" I look at her pleadingly and she just kisses me on the forehead once again saying she'll be less than a minute, this time nodding, i make myself comfortable on the sofa.

Returning in record time accompanied with my duvet, snacks and my hyper little sister, she places Cara on the sofa and passes her own blanket then moves next to me and pulls me into her lap with my big duvet wrapped around us. Once again i nuzzle my face into her warm neck and feel complete safeness within her arms.

After hours of movies, bored games and pizza, we all head up to bed. After I've brushed my teeth and changed into boxers and a t shirt i climb into my bed and get settled under the covers. A few minutes later mum comes in, "i called the police, they know you're safe with me so we have to go down to the station tomorrow." she notices me look down and pull the covers up to my chin. "Do you want me to sleep with you tonight?" she asks gently. I give her a nod and she turns off the light and gets in next to me, me once again snuggling into her warm hug and falling into a rare calm sleep.

The next day was a blur really. i woke to find out my dad had been arrested over night, mum had already made an offer on a house for us all to live in seeing as she wants to keep me in this school and i decided i should turn my phone on only to be bombarded my messages and missed calls from Vic all starting to get panicky. So laying in bed that night was different. I was excited to see this new house we were moving into tomorrow and i was excited to hear Vics voice again. Coming to the conclusion i should put him out his misery and the fact i cant wait i dial his number. Picking up frantically on the first ring, "Kellin? KELLIN? omg are you there? are you okay?"
me: "y-yea hey Vic, im sorry for not answering i had my phone off and alots been going on."
Vic: "what kind of stuff? are you okay? did you hurt yourself again Kells?"
me: "um, can i come over tomorrow? and we can talk about everything then in person."
Vic: "of course Kells, but please i need to know that you're not going to do anything tonight. please"
me: "my mum knows Vic, you dont have to worry. Im really tired so im going to try get some sleep, ill see you tomorrow"
Vic: "alright, sweet dreams Kellin"
And with that he hung up, and i fell into a perfect sleep and waking up in mums arms. She must have crept in after i finished talking to Vic.