bad place

1. healer

graces pov

this morning I was rudely awakened for work by my knob head brother, Ethan. Ethans my older brother, we were inseparable as kids and were exactly the same now, inseparable. we do everything together, we both now live together in London, mainly to save money on my behalf, money was no object with Ethan, he's always offered to fund me and give me money, but id rather work for what I have.

he's apart of a group of lads that's make videos on YouTube called the sidemen, his friends are my friends and as much as he hates it they like me better so I guess he's stuck. he's always had this overprotectiveness of me, I never understood it to be perfectly honest.

after the rude awakening this morning I put on my uniform, I currently work at Nando's. I love working there, the staff are like family, even though I sometimes get harassed by pre-pubescent boys staring at my arse or tits. and make my way to work, today Ethan dropped me off, I work at the one in Covent Garden.

"are you picking me up later?" I asked

"what time do you finish? he replied

"six"

" ok ill pick you up, are you coming out after?"

" out out or round at JJ's?"

"out out"

"yeah I'll come. right I need to go." I said climbing out of the car kissing his cheek

walking into work giving everyone a friendly smile, serving customers and waiting tables for a couple of hours and then I heard a familiar laugh at the entrance, I walked over to see JJ, josh, vik and harry.

"hi guys." I say hugging them all

"you on break?" jj said hugging me back

"no but I need one." I say laughing

"ask then." harry chimed in.

"Laura please may i take a break." I asked politely

"hiya boys," she smiled, the all smiled and replied with a mix of heys and you alright's.

"of course you can my love, take an hour and half." she replied sweetly knowing full well i should only have an hour.

"here g take my card." harry smiled

"okay" I said with a smile whilst taking his bank card out of his hand.

before I walked away he planted a kiss on my cheek. before you say anything harry and I aren't together we flirt a lot but nothings ever happened, it gets right on Ethans tits he can't stand it. we both find it hilarious.

knowing all of their orders I put them through and Laura took the card out of my hand

"Harrys not paying darling" she said as I looked at her in confusion

watching what she was doing on the till, she put all of the food through for free and smiled,

"get some drinks and go and sit down, you've been here since eleven. have you eaten today?" she questioned

"thank you and yes" I smiled

"mm, go on." she mumbled

I got everyones drinks and sat down, passing harry his card back.

"you look peaky g." josh said putting his hand on my head.

I quickly shoved it off and shook my head.

"im fine, anyways what's happening?" I said "you never come in to see me."

"grace we're worried about you, how you're acting." jj said

jide never called me grace.

the food all came mid sentence and everyone got handed a plate bar me.

"that's one of the reasons" josh said

"what" i said not following what was being said.

"you look really sick gracie." harry said

"sorry?"

"you look pale. have u been taking your meds?" he replied

"I've been taking them." I argued

"we'll i've booked you in for a checkup because i know you'll not do it" he argued back

"fuck sake man i'm fine." i spat

"well we'll see tomorrow won't we?" he replied smugly

by the time we had our conversation my break was up. last year i was hospitalised because of my chronic illness and it scares the boys to death that i'm going to get bad again. i understand why they care so much someone who's been in their life for over ten years nearly died in her brothers arms but even though i'm recovering i'm still not 100%.

ever since my diagnosis it really had controlled my life, the weakness and the pain is unmatched.

"bye lads see you later." I said hugging the all, harry leaving a peck on my cheek.

before I returned to my shift I needed a wee so I ran up to the toilet but once I got to the top of the stairs I felt really dizzy and felt like I needed to throw up, I luckily made it to the toilet and everything that id just eaten. I felt like shit. never the less I continued to work up until six.

i think things are bad again.

I was getting ready for leaving as Ethan pulled up outside. I jumped in and he drove home, in complete silence and not a word was said between us. what the fuck was his problem.

i rolled down the window and pulled out a cigarette with my very fancy Vivienne Westwood lighter jj bought me and lit the white and orange stick.

ethan side eyed me and shook his head.

"your sick gracie, why are you smoking again i thought you quit." he asked

"we'll i'm going to die sooner or later so who cares?" i replied

"we'll your not dying anytime soon so put it out." the angrier his voice sounded

"no ethan i'm not."

after my stubbornness he simply gave up and i lit another one just to spite him.