bad place

7. Matilda

hey lovely's!! alot of speech in this one. id recommend listening to Matilda by harry for this chapter, and there's a lot of speech so buckle in!! love u all 💞💞

harrys pov

all I can remember from last night was punching someone because they wouldn't leave my grace alone, then he ended up punching me and then grace and that's when everything got split up and I was taken back to my apartment by lux and chip and grace soon returning being carried into my room by freezy and passing out.

its now the next morning, both our heads were banging from not just the alcohol but the abuse we encountered last night from some ugly 20 year old who's balls haven't dropped. it baffles me how some boys don't understand the meaning of no. 

I got myself up and made us both a bowl of coco pops, two pint glasses of water and found a packet of paracetamol, which we both took two each for our shocking headaches. we both sat in bed enjoying each others company, the silence was bliss, we stayed like that most of the morning. in bed, nice and warm no distractions.

until her phone rang. the number was unknown. she looked at me to wether or not she should answer it. I nodded out of curiosity, I wanted to see who it was. the slid the bar across and put the phone on speaker.

"um hello?" she almost whispered. 

"grace, is that you?" a female voice replied.

"yes who's this?" she questioned.  

"its your mum." the lady scoffed. 

g: "oh um hi mum." 

l:"I wanted to ask you why you haven't called or text for the past year grace"

g:"ive been really busy mum."

l:"that's no fucking excuse grace. your jobless, live of fucking Ethan all of the time."

g:"I had a job mum but it was too much."

l:"fuck off, too much? your genuinely so fucking lazy."

g:"mum im ill."

l:"that's nothing grace, you're putting it on now, I was saying to my friends how I think you're faking this whole back thing."

g:"faking it?"

l:"yeh you are one hundred percent."

g:"why have you rang me mum?"she spoke trying to change the subject as this was too hurtful. 

l:"I don't even know, I know you and Ethan aren't speaking and you have no friends so I thought id check up on you."

g:"oh right."

l:"yeh you've never had no girlfriends or anything like that, oh and I came across your instagram, its fucking vile grace."

g:"okay and?"

l:"you've really put some weight on, and those bikini photos are really showing off your fat its disgusting if you ask me, ill send you a link to some slimming teas I saw they'll knock the fat straight off of you I promise"

g:"there's no need mu-"

l:"I know how much you hated yourself growing up and you must be feeling the same about yourself now, seeing with how much weight you've put on, it my not seem like it but I am helping."

g:"mum I really need to go ive got a meeting soon." she lied. 

l:"alright love im just looking out for you that's all."

g:"I know mum I know bye." she sniffled 

l:"bye sweet." she spoke changing her tune. 

what the fuck have I just listened to?

I turned to face her and she had tears streaming down her face.

"darling." I said with a sigh. 

"what the fuck harry. why would she say that?"

"I have no clue Gracie, none of it is true."

"it is though even my own mother thinks it's."

"she's a bitch gracie, she obviously doesn't know you, like everyone else does ."

"I need to ring Ethan." she mumbled 

"okay love." I said kissing the side of her face wiping her tears away she walked out into the kitchen giving herself some space. 

graces pov

I placed myself down onto a stool at the island and pressed on Ethans contact.

it rang a few times and he picked up,

"is everything okay grace?" he questioned 

"um no not really, can I come over?" I sniffled.

"of course you can g." he mumbled. 

I put on my coat and my crocs, put my headphones over my ears and shot harry a text:

"going to ethan's be back later xo"

"okay be safe x" he replied. 

walking to Ethans took about fifteen minutes and the music blasting in my ears made it go so much quicker, I found myself at his door and gently knocked. 

he quickly opened and was met with my tear stained face and a confused look quickly crossed his face. it was fair to say I was a mess. 

"what's happened Gracie," he started my eyes darted to the pretty girl sat in the corner of the room, "oh and faiths here by the way."

I placed myself down on his sofa that we used to share.

"why does mum hate me?" I questioned not only him but myself.

"she doesn't." he replied 

"she rang me this morning, saying how much I repulsed her and how im faking my illness. saying my instagram was disgusting and my bikini pics practically made her feel sick."

"what the fuck." he mumbled 

"why doesn't she love me the way she loves you eth, it's been like this since I can remember."  I sobbed into his arms.

"she has a funny way of showing it." he tried to reason 

"I was the reason dad left, that's why she hates me. I drove him away and she's never looked at me the same, all the things she said about me are true."

"grace, they are not you have to believe me."

"but she's my mum Ethan, why would she say such hurtful things, she's nothing but proud of you but for me its the opposite, why would you call your own daughter fat." I said with all the questions running through my head.

"you don't need her Gracie." he tried to reason.

"every girl needs her mum. who do I go to when I have an issue with a boy or a problem with my body that I need help with." I ranted.

"wait you and harry are having problems?" he asked 

"what, oh god no, but when Luke cheated on me who did I go to?" I asked 

"you didn't tell anyone." he mumbled 

"exactly this is my point. why does she want to hurt me?"

"I have no clue." he said giving faith a look with me crying in his lap absolutely heartbroken from the words my mother had just said to me.