The way you make me feel

Chapter 1: Anxious

Jayden POV

He looked tall, as if an existence completely different form my own. He had black hair and deep brown eyes, almost as if a chocolate was inviting me to eat it. He was surrounded by people of all kinds, like a celebrity would be surrounded by its most loyal fans. This is the existence some would call, a popular kid.

Make no mistake though, he was kind. For more background, my name is Jayden, it's my first day at a new school today. I'm definitely more nervous then I should be, can't help it though, it's the middle of the semester. October 3rd to be exact.

Some would say it's a shame, but I'm indifferent to the whole thing, I've never been much of a talker and I can count my friends with two fingers. My parents were surprised when I agreed without them having to put much effort into convincing me why it's worth it to move, I've always been mindful of them since they've sacrificed so much for me, so I should do the same whenever the opportunity arises.

The bell rang, pulling my out of my daydream. I'm on my way to chemistry class, which is my first period (who even dares to give chemistry at 7:15am?) but I've got no clue as to where that is. My parents should've taken me to an open campus the school did two days back, but they were unable to do so because of work. My anxiety was probably showing on my face, since he came up to me and asked me what was wrong.

—"Hi, do you know where you're going? Oh, don't mind me asking of course. You just look really worried about something and you seem to be new here. At least I've never seen you before."—

Oh God, please no. I hate when people come talk to me, even worse if I didn't call for them. My stomach is churning all over,  my brain is blurry, my heart is going a thousand miles per hour and I feel like crying and screaming out of nervousness, all in less than ten seconds.

—"Oh... yeah. It's j-just that I... I...need to like uhm- I need to go to a class. I-It's called AP chemistry. Do you know where that is...?"—

Fuck. I just ruined my chances of having friends, I can already see everyone staring at me and laughing behind my back while I walk past them. This is so embarrassing, I've gotta get out of here. Oh my God, how am I supposed to walk by all these people now that they saw me performing in the stuttering festival.

—"Of course I know! I'll take you there, no worries dude"—

He looks friendly, so I decided to trust a stranger just this once. He told me where it was located and he even took me to my class, at one point I thought he was pranking me, but he actually walked a two building distance just to take me to AP chemistry. Weird.

I thanked him wholeheartedly, albeit freaked out since I've never meet someone so kind. He said it was no problem, "I'd be happy to show you around" were his words. Weird.

AP chem was boring, I don't even know why I agreed to take all those AP classes. The problems the teacher solved seemed like one big blur, as if someone was shaking my head consistently. Meanwhile the teacher proceeded to explain solutions and compounds, and I lost my last bit of focus after that discussion.

The bell rang, which is supposed to signal the end of class, but the teacher gave us a solid 10 minute lecture as to why "the bell doesn't dismiss you, I do" when she saw how everyone was putting their materials away. I left the building wondering which way to go, since I've never heard of a high school who gives "humanities" as a class. 

You may be thinking "why don't you just ask a teacher or a student instead of wandering like a ghost around campus?" To that I say, I would if I could. I suffer from something they like to call as social anxiety, which is pretty much the fear of social interactions in a nutshell.

I was late to humanities by 12 minutes. The teacher told me he'd keep an eye on me, I wanted to dig a hole and burry myself in it. I then had to explain that I'm a transfer student who just arrived and give him a pathetic excuse that not even I believed. The day just started and I'm already wanting to leave.