Holding Onto Life✔️

part :10

Shivaay continued reading the next part of the same page which confused him more regarding Anika's thoughts. He used to think Anika knows him and doesn't think like other women. He heard from Janvi and dadi that women start to fear many things but never thought his wife was also facing this and he was unaware.

I don't know why but I feel this will happen for sure. How can a guy like Shivaay stay in a relationship with me who is not equal to his level? I don't know where I will go if he left me but please meet me once if he took you and left me. Your mother will be waiting for you always, but don't hate me because I always wished to have a baby. I am saying the truth, I was just scared about his choice. What if he didn't want and started to fight with me? Baby I don't want your father to stop admiring. I don't want to live without him. Tell him that his wife always loved him

"Why were you thinking like this Anika? Don't you know this Shivaay is also incomplete without you? Why this will happen, Han? Don't you know I can forgive you for any mistake? I am not even 1 per cent angry with you for that matter ", Shivaay said and caressed Anika's hair softly. He wants to convey his current feeling to Anika but he knows he should not as his wife needs to rest. He started to admire Anika and even though these were showing her fear he is happy to read the last line. This line means everything to him and he knows that she loves him. He started to read the next chapter when he felt Anika turning around

"Careful", Shivaay said and made her sleep straight, this is Anika's daily problem that she tries to turn around and he has to take care of her.

"Turn lights off please", Anika said in low voice. She opened her eyes a little to see lights turned on and rays of light were burning her eyes. Anika hides her eyes by her hand and shifted close to him. Shivaay looked at her and smiled seeing her

"I will never leave you", he said what he wanted to convey after reading her diary which confused Anika

"Hain... Are you drunk? I asked you to turn the lights off", Anika said irritated as her sleep is getting disturbed by the lights and his nonsense reply. Shivaay replied with a "no" and turned off the lights immediately

"Happy now?", Shivaay asked to which Anika hummed. Shivaay waited for some time to let Anika sleep and then started to read the last page of her diary which is current

Nowadays I am very happy because Shivaay is always here as my support. I think nobody can care for me the way he does. He is my lifeline. From the day I married him, I know how he tried to keep me happy. He is a very innocent kid who needs someone to pamper him and support him, sometimes he feels that I don't love him. But this never angered me or irritated me because I know he just want someone's attention which is not wrong.

I don't wish my child to love me more and not him because he is a father. Instead, I want my child to love him and wish that it should be a daughter as Shivaay wants a daughter. Even if it is a boy we will love him as he will be a symbol of our love and beautiful life. Whenever I used to feel uneasy, Shivaay was there. He is the one who bears my mood swings and nausea. He is God's gifted child.

I wish I could come to heaven and tell you mom, how your son is.

Shivaay smiled wholeheartedly reading this and these words touched his heart. He doesn't want someone to gift him many things or her to say I love you daily, he just wants her to make him feel that he is important to her and she does it. Especially on time when he feels that maybe their love is fading. Shivaay noticed time and realised it is midnight and if he didn't sleep today then he will not be able to concentrate on rituals tomorrow so he also slept peacefully as his heart is relaxed.