The Son of My Boss

The strange Change of event

In the last month kathelina has been very distant and not very communicative with me. Ever since she found out she was pregnant, she's been going to the doctors alone and telling me very lil information about anything. Today she has an apt and im going to make reservation for us at a very nice restaurant. she is getting ready to leave with chris when i pull her into the other room, she is alil reluctant but comes.

J: hey can we go out to a restaurant when you come back to talk please

k: i rather not but if you insist i guess we can

J: we was fine and now you seem light years away from this relationship i dont want to lose you

K: *rolls her eyes* i really don't got time for this i'm still in the house i haven't gone anywhere 

J:*grabs kathelina by the waist pulls her in* thats not what i mean and you know it

K: i got to go before im late ill see you after justin *tries to get out of my arms*

i pull her in a give her a passionate kiss, she kisses me back after a lil and we make out for a lil but, i let her go and she walks out the door, this isn't normal before i couldn't leave without her jumping on me giving me love. i look online for the best restaurant in the area, ask for it to be us and i pay alot of money for everything to be perfect tonight. i go out to the stores and get us the perfect outfits. i come back to the house and kathelina isn't back still. i feed the dogs and set the clothes out for us. 6pm comes around and shes still not back by this time i had fallen asleep on the sofa. around 8:30 she walks in thru the door and sees me sleeping, she wakes me up to let me know shes back,

j: what took you so long you've been gone all-day?

k: i didn't know i had a curfew to be back

j: no but i made dinner plans, you know the one you agreed too.

k: well im here now its not a big deal 

j: it is too me you keep showing me im just not important to you like i thought i was kat and its bothering me

k: look if you want to go ill go throw something on and well go if not ill head upstairs and watch tv till i fall asleep justin

j: i bought you an outfit for the occasion its upstairs

she walks upstairs and i follow behind her because i have to get ready also, she walks into the our bedroom and sees the clothes on the bed. she smiles and touches the dress and turns to look at me 

J: its for you, just enjoy it and try to have fun with me tonight im not trying to argue with you or anything. i just want to reconnect with you and be how we was before 

K: how tf can we do that when i remember everything justin and i mean everything???

J: what do you mean you remember everything?

K: everything the past relationship, the accident, the limbo i was in for months, fucking everything and now im pregnant with the same guy i've gone threw hell with. i dont know how to process it all this is a kid now in the picture. i cant think about myself anymore, i have a kid to think about and now that i think about it, i shouldn't have made the decission of keeping it knowing im still in recovery.

J: why didnt you say something to me before? thought we agreed since we started over that we would also have an open communication with eachother and try to be there for eachother threw 

K: what am i suppose to say justin? hey so i remember everything and i dont know if this relationship or baby is right for me for us? you are inlove with me i dont want to hurt you, or  make it seem like im leading you tf on that's not me.

J: do you not want to be with me no more kat?

K:i dont know justin im confused im figuring everything out from getting my memory back to accepting im pregnant with you child. im processing everything.

i walk up to her and grab her by her waist, she looks down to the floor. i try to kiss her and she looks away.

J: why wont you kiss me or look at me kat?

K: because when i look at you or kiss you i just cant stop 

J: thats a good thing isnt it 

K: no its not justin just because it feels good doesnt mean its good for me

she walks into the closet and gets a bag, she starts packing her clothes. 

J: what are you doing? why are you packing your stuff up?

K: i think im going to stay with my parents for alil and clear my head and figure things out 

J: what bout us and our family we making kat i love you

K: yea and loving you cost me a damn lot and i dont know if i want to keep giving up to you.

J: we was doing good i was showing you changed for better

K: its not you who needs to figure things out its me, i need to figure things out for the better of me.

J: does it matter what i feel and think at all?

K: it does and doesn't and this sounds selfish but you have to understand where im coming from to be honest i spent months in a hospital bed because of this toxicity  with you and i just dont know if wanting to be in this is healthy for me anymore.

i stand there in silence not knowing what to do or say. she continues packing and i stand there trying to figure out what to do.  i know i love her but what she is saying is right it would be selfish of me. this is my future wife and kid that would be gone out my life and i dont want that. i grab her hands and look her in her eyes she looks away i push her chin up and look her in her eyes.

J: get dressed come with me and if after tonight you still feel the same ill drive you up to your parents in the morning ok please you are still pregnant with my kid and even if you think i dont care i do.

K: justin

J: hear me out i understand everything you are telling me but hear me out and lets go to dinner and what i had planned i think i have a good alternative plan.

she noddeds her head and starts to get ready she gets in the shower. i sit on the bed and sulk alil this seems to be a nightmare. i go to get in the shower she doesnt really say much when i get in. she continue to shower and we really dont talk or really look ea other in thee eyes, at this point shes turned around washing her face, im putting soap all over my body and staring. she looks amazing, i get close to her and i feel her tense up, and she kind of slows her movements down. 

K: justin dont please

J: im not doing anything im just taking a shower kat 

K: sure you are 

she quickly washes her face and turns to quick into me, she crashes into me. i grab onto her and she gasps, we stare into ea others eyes. she looks down and then quickly looks back up. i chuckle and let her go.

J; dont act shy now your carrying my child 

she get outs the shower and i stay in the shower just thinking about everything going onn. our spark is still  there even if she doesn't see it. while im in the shower i really start thinking maybe her staying with her mom and dad and me taking her on dates gives us the space since we are almost 24/7 with ea other. i get out ad walk into total beauty, she is fully dressed the dress is snug in all the right ways and her hair is up very nicely. she is currently doing her make up, i get dressed and tell her ill meet her in the car wwhen shes done that the driver is waiting.