The Son of My Boss

Kathelina Where Are You?

kathelina point of view*

I walk outside, I am beyond aggravated i know this is a very touchy subject for him but to think im suppose to act a certain way. I only remember bits and pieces from that night, I'm not  completely oblivious to that night. I'm afraid to confront Justin as me as Kathelina, I was so irresponsible that night and careless. I feel bad that he is blaming himself for what happened. I've literally lived that night over and over and over while i was in a coma, well at least what i remember. I want to talk to him has me but what would i say what would happen??? Should i keep pretending to not remember and see how thing play out between us? I can't do that to him and let him blame himself for everything when I had parts in it. What I remember is us fighting wasn't sure about what but I remember us having a big fight. I got ready and dressed up to make him jealous that was my goal for the night. I got to the club went to the bar got a drink. it's unclear but i remember talking to Chris and us staring at each other. I remember making out with him and only running away because i was afraid that the alcohol and that we would both regret it in the morning. I really wanted to sleep with him after we made out. Alot of things stopped me the him cheating on me, the what if's, the arguing and fighting. I just wanted us to be a great couple and it seemed like we weren't meant to be no matter how hard we tired to make it work and did what we had to do to make the other person feel better. I remember being in the car looking at him threw the window and shaking my head no to him. Then its all a blank till I'm in my room looking at the Hennessy bottle and then all of a sudden chugging the bottle and its unclear why i did it but i did it. Ran out the room and ran into Justin. Remember arguing just dont remember about what. After that I am unclear and don't come back to my senses till I'm driving down the drive way doing 80 the car is spinning on the inside because I'm drunk i look in the rear view mirror and see Justin driving after me, i look back in front of me and there was the tree my hands are in front of my face I feel scared and then the impact. Then i remember seeing Justin and that is it then i woke up in the hospital. Alot is clear like it is unclear in my head i don't want Justin to think i am a complete liar because I'm not I just am afraid to face him and the world because i know people know i got into this accident because i was drunk driving. I don't know how i am going to face my parents i know that i scared them they almost lost they're only child because she is stupid and arrogant. I was about to give up my world and everything I have worked hard for over a boy and a relationship that was clearly not over. We could have fix things and been better then ever or went separate ways and maybe in the future become friends. All these thoughts are giving me headaches and when i finally look up and that's when i noticed that I'm not at the restaurant anymore, actually I'm not exactly sure where the hell i am. I frantically look around and try to figure out where I am. I looked to see if maybe Justin followed me and i just couldn't hear him but no he was no where to be found. I only have a wallet with my id and an address on there that is not clearly in my memories because of the accident. My head starts to pound even harder and that's when i realized that my medication is where ever the hell Justin is. I stop take a breath and walk into the first store that i see that looks friendly to strangers. I ask if I could us their phone to make a phone call, I sat there staring at the phone trying to think of a number to call and only one number came to mind but i was unsure who's number it was.

-the phone rings-

c: hello

k: who's this?

c: you called me, who's this?

k: this is kathelina and your number is the only number that my head can remember but i don't know who you are. If by any chance you don't know me and this is a wrong number i am completely sorry.

c: this is Chris... Chris brown where are you Justin is going crazy looking for you.

K: i don't know i guess i was thinking and walking and then i ended up here in the middle of no where

c: what's the name of the store i'll pick you up 

k:ill put on the manager

i gave the phone to the manager who spoke to Chris and i sat down in one of the table and waited for him to pick me up and help me. I am useless right now and i don't like this feeling. 30-40 minutes waiting and here comes in Chris and he runs up to me. I have my hands on my head because my head is beyond hurting, the pain is unbearable.

C: are you ok?

K: no im not my head is beyond hurting me and i don't have any meds because Justin has them all and I don't know his number I don't have a phone -slams my fist on the table- I feel fucking useless!!!

C: you just got out the hospital you are still recovering don't down talk yourself you are not completely useless if you was able to remember my number and find a phone to call me to help you. Don't knock yourself down you did a great fucking job. 

We walk out the store and get into his car, he drives us to this beautiful house and when we drive by a spot i get and instant flash back

*FLASHBACK*

Noises of a car loosing control and another one stop while one crashes.

J: kathelina kathelina kathelina wake up please wake up, kathelina please i love you kathelina you can't leave me please i need you in my life 

K: I'm sorry Justin

J: kathelina kathelina kathelina noooo please talk to me this isn't your fault, wake up damn it why did you run away i just wanted to be with you, kathelina please don't leave me 

-back to reality-

Tears are streaming down my face and Chris notices that tears are streaming down and get concern that's when he realized i just had a flashback from that night 

C: are you ok

K: no i just remembered something from that night and it wasn't the best memory of that night. why would you bring me back here back to the place I was trying to escape. you are not a friend of mines.

C: I brought you here because this is where you live this is where all your stuff is. I can't do much but apologize but flash backs are a great thing this mean you are starting to remember things from your life.

He drives up the drive way and there is standing Justin waiting for us. Chris parks the car and Justin rushes to the car and hugs me because he was sooo worried and didn't know what to do. I hug him back thinking about the flashback i start crying and he just holds me closer. Chris says his goodbyes and leaves us standing there to figure out what we are going to do. Justin stands there for a few comforting me the best way he could. i knew this wasnt going to help i will need to confront my fears sooner or later.... I  finally pull away and look at him and say..

K: i remember some of that night 

J: do you really now?

K: Yes and it's not all nice things I'm going to be honest, its very frightful these memories.

J: it's ok i know that this is all very stressful and frustrating so let go inside and we can talk tomorrow after you get a goodnight sleep 

we both go inside amd his dogs come rushing to me i get on my knees and huge and give them love these dogs are a big part of me while im giving them love i get a flashback of me laying down with the dogs a loud boom. justin snaps me out of it 

J: hey you ok?

K: i'm fine why you ask

J: you spaced out for a few

K: just a small flashback of me with your dogs on a bed and a boom a loud bang 

J: thats interesting well the more you remember you keep telling me and if i know what the flashback are ill explain them now lets lay you down so you can relax and recover.

K: ok thank you