Kim's POV
Nothing wakes you up like waking up alone.
He's not beside me anymore. He's not in my arms right now. Chay had left.
Lost in the thoughts of him leaving as I reminisce the conversation we had last night.
Which made him question my love for him.
Flashback
"I'll ask you this question again P'Kim, Did you ever love?" Chay asked
"I love you so much Chay, so much that I'd rather see you from a far cause you being with me puts your life in danger" I replied
"Do you not feel guilty at all? You're all I want so much it's hurting and here you are pushing me away once again" he said
"I never feel guilty about anything Chay, unless I hurt someone and realized that, that person is the other half of me" I said holding his hand
"How could you be so sure Phi. What you're saying right now doesn't make sense" he said as he took his hands off mine.
"I know it's love Chay cause I will always be the first to start making up excuses when it hurts. I hate seeing you like this Chay but know that I'm doing this for you"
"You're doing this for me knowing how much this hurts me?" he said
"Believe it or not Chay and It may seem wrong, but I only like myself when I'm with you and to me its the right thing. I'm trying to protect you" I said trying to get a hold of him.
"Strong, a side of me you never found, cause you only see me when my guard is down" he said which led me hugging him tightly, refusing to let him go.
"I wanna feel you in the dark P'Kim, I could use some your love but all you left me with was scars and that's the hardest part" he said as he breakdown in my arms.
"There's nobody like you, I tried goodbye a hundred times phi, not one of them true" he said as his voice breaks trying to gather enough air to breathe.
"I said I don't want you but you know that I do. I know you do" I said as he breaks our hug starring at each other for a few minutes.
Staring deeply at each others eyes. Talking and communicating in silence.
I looked him in the eyes, saw that I was lost. For every question why, he was my because.
He then spoke once again and asked "You're turning away like you hate me P'Kim, Do you hate me?"
"No angel, I have my reasons I can't say it right now.
"Love me please P'Kim. 'Cause I could still be the only one you need, the only one close enough to feel you breathe"
"I could still be that place where you run, instead of the one that you're running from" Chay said still crying
I could only stare at him, I was trying to respond to him but again there were no words coming out of my mouth. I could only hug him once again.
"You're the only one I need P'Kim. So please put a little love on me" he whispered
"I will angel, I promise"
end of flashback
I hope he will be patient enough to wait for me.
I kept Rhyle so at least I know Chay is still here with me.
Like his shadows are following me around in another persons body.
He had changed so much this past few months all because of the pain I've caused.
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