This chapter is sort of to spread awareness. I struggle with panic attacks and I wrote what I experience when I have them. Remember there are different types of panic attacks and everyone is different.
You hop onto the couch with big smile on your face.
"Someone looks happy" Jisoo says before wrapping her arms around you
"Yes, I'm happy because I'm with you." You say softly. She looks so beautiful. Her long hair, her brown eyes, her flawless skin, she's just so perfect.
"You you want to watch a movie or keep staring at me?" She asks jokingly.
"Honestly both." You say while caressing her cheek. You swear you fall in love with her more and more everyday.
"Ok I'll put on a movie and you can alternate." She says before kissing your head and turning on Charlie and the chocolate factory. You laugh at her movie choice.
"You're such a child" you say with a giggle before putting your head on her chest.
It's about and hour into the movie, everything was going good. You and Jisoo would occasionally laugh at Willy wonkas smart ass remarks, but all of a sudden you feel a wave of fear come over you.
You hold onto her a little tighter, praying the fear and anxiety would go away, but it didn't. You begin to sweat and tremble.
"y/n?" She says feeling you shake in her arms, but you barely heard her. You started to hyperventilate, and your heart was clearly beating faster than usual, and that's when it hit you that you were having a panic attack. Your girlfriend noticed too and let you go. She kneeled in front of you.
"baby breath" she says calmly while rubbing your shoulder but you just shook your head. You try to breathe through your sobs but it seems impossible
"I-I can't!" You yell out in between sobs. You never told her about your panic attacks but luckily she recognized the situation.
"Baby it's ok, I promise. I'm right here, I'm won't go anywhere." She whispers. After about 5 minutes you weren't struggling to breath as much and you were calmed down for the most part.
She was right there by your side through it all. "I didn't know you had panic attacks" she says as she runs her fingers up and down your arms.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you, but can we talk about it later?"
"Of course my love, but you don't need to be sorry about anything, I love you."
"I love you too" you say before putting your head on her chest and kissing her neck
