poetry I write while mentally ill in college

the L word

I can't stop
Thinking of you
Writing of you
Hoping from you

Hoping that you
Might feel what I
Wish I could stop
Feeling. But most days I
wish I would feel this forever:

If only you would feel it too.

I have a playlist called
"The L Word"
Because I couldn't name it
Lydia
Without giving the meaning
Away. But the L word
Is not lesbian
But the moment in
Scott Pilgrim vs. The World

I promised to show you
Scott Pilgrim vs. The World
Someday. Because you
Need to know the beauty
Of that film. But maybe
I also want you to realize
That the L word is
Love.

I love you
Like a friend,
Sure. But maybe
There is something
More. Maybe I
Only wish
There was something more.
Maybe you
Would wish I
Could forget this

If only you knew how I loved you.