| UNFADING LUST | Wilhemina Venable

CH.1 NEW GIRL

It very hard for me to wake up every morning and not wanting to scream my lungs out, I hate school I really really hate school, I just can't wait to graduate and get on with life the way I want to.

I'm on my bed with blanket still pulled over my head, I want to cry. I don't know if you feel this way as I'm feeling right now, I can't do it today.

Friday 6:23am

I pull down the blanket staring at the ceiling, fuck my life, I thought. I walk to the bathroom, too lazy to be doing my morning skin fucking care routine if only my skin would give a fuck, I jump in the shower.

As I walk to my closet, Ethan knock on my door, "breakfast's ready" then he harshly close the door, "FUCK YOU ASSHOE" I yell.

I pick out a purple crop top and a blue jeans, I turn on the music while doing my make up. (East of Eden by Zella Day)

I walk down the stairs hearing Armani and Ethan barking at each other, "STOP BARKING" I enter the barking session for 15 minutes until mom walk in, "shut up and eat your food" she says, pulling out her seat.

"where's dad?" I ask playing with my food, "out last night with uncle Joe" she murmurs, "Let me guess, hunting???" I can't wait to be able to go with dad, "mhm" she nods, "I really want to join them" I really do, "after your eighteen birthday, you will I promise" she smile a little.

The maid brings in cupcake, "I don't want a cupcake" I whine, I was waiting for a brownie, been eating cupcake for a week now. "brat" I heard Army from the world war 2 murmurs, I take one of the cupcake and smash it to her face, she shot out the chair "enjoy you cupcake bitch" I take my bag then drive to school. It's still illegal for me to drive but who care, it's either I'll die or some other asshoes. I hate everyone, every shitty living or non-living on this planet.

8:21 am

I parked next to a black range rover, I'm walking into the school building people are staring and me, "what the fuck are you looking at?" I stop and stare back at them, they quickly turn away, "fucking bitches" I spit, I have no friend maybe no one want to talk to me but I never wish for anyone open their stinky ass mouth to me, so it doesn't really matter I'm better on my own.

What I like about myself is that I'm insanely aggressive, psychotic bitch, the best definition of lunatic and that my dear I love myself.

I tried therapy, psychiatrist they told me I suffer from BPD, but I don't really believe them so now I stop going, I mean what's the point? going to them just so they can tell me that I'm delusional or sick.

"good morning Ms. Wood" I says to my math teacher, "morning" she still working on her laptop.

"so today we have a new student joining us" she says holding a girl wearing black dress, she look quite pale her brown eyes are shining, pinky lipstick stood on her lips, red hair falling above her shoulder making me want to take a sniff, "Hi, I'm Adreana Venable" she says, smiling widely. "so please be kind and respect her" Ms. Wood glare at me afraid that I might eat the bitch alive from my insanity.

The new red head girl take a seat next to me, I stare at her black crystal necklace "that's pretty" I never thought I would compliment anyone, "oh thank you" she smiles.

After class, I'm sitting at the cafeteria eating a piece of bread, "hey can I sit?" Adreana the new girl ask, "yea" I nods.

"so you are...?", "Violet, Violet Walton" I throw the bread into the trash can, "beautiful name" "I'm Adreana Venable" we talk for twenty minutes about random things, she told me her house was far away from town, I wonder how far she offered to bring me there after school so we could hang. We got along pretty well, she kinda weird and we have so much common. She's one year older than me, from what I remembered she told me she turned 18 last month and I'm turning 18 next month.