mirrorball ,, poetry.

☁️.

i need you. do you know why?

because i don't need to go home to someone. i need to find your arms leaving the door behind me.

i don't need someone to take my hand to make me stand or be the rock to lean on. i stand alone. but i'd like you to hold me if i decide not to.

i don't need someone to whisper sweet things to me to at least give me a certainty in life. i need someone who makes me lower my voice against my screams, because he prefers it sweet.

i don't want to be essential, i don't want to be your weak point, i don't want your life without me to have no meaning, i don't want you to need me.

i want you to choose me to add something to your life, be it thrill, everyday life, anger and love in unison.

i don't want to walk hand in hand in the park, celebrate anniversaries at a restaurant, exchange gifts at christmas. but i want that when you're not there, you know how to be there.

we are all the same, we give much more importance to the absence of people.

i don't want to be aware of you only when you leave. i want to feel good even when you are distant and not stand you when we are together.

i don't want to be a nice memory, i want to be that set of emotions that you don't explain in a single sentence.

i'm not gonna be that bitch, the nice one, the proud one, or the immature one.

i want to be the one that if you try to enclose behind a word, you can't and you have to talk about it for an hour to make it clear who i am.

maybe i don't even need you or any of this.

to need means not to be able to do otherwise.

i want to make it and choose you to add these things to me.

to choose rationally, not because i could not do otherwise.

this is rational love.

i don't save you and you don't save me, but if we want to experience the thrill of sinking, we can do it together.

© buterawriter