Mine? (Todobaku Fanfiction)

feel guilty

Shoto pov

What should we do?" I woke up with whispering sounds. I was lying on a couch in school dorm. I got up and went to that room which i heard whispering sounds. I saw bakugou and others of class 1A.
"What are u guys doing?" I asked.
"Todoroki-kun, Were you being abused by your father?"
"Ah?"
"We know about it."
"Are you okay todoroki-kun?"
"We should tell teachers about this."
"He is weak against his father."
"Poor todoroki."
"I thought he is really strong."
"Yeah, what a pain."
"Are they going to help me? Is this good? No, they are looking down on me? No no no no no, i dont know. This is bad, really bad. Dont look down on me." Tears started to escape from my eyes. I saw bakugou. He was sitting on a chair looking away from me. I went to him.
"Bakugou?"
He looked at me.
"Yes, icyhot?"
"Do you still like me?" I know i just stay with him, only few hours. But i felt he really cares about me. I like to be with him always, forever. I want see his other side that everyone didnt see, his kind helpful adorable side.
"Are you kidding me icyhot? I love you, i love your hair, voice, eyes, everything and specially to your personality. Bu-"
"Katsuki" he stopped cause kirishma came towards to him. I felt happy. That means i can be with him.
But i was wrong. Kirishma came to bakugou and kissed his lips. Bakugou kissed back. I felt sharp pain on my heart. It feels like someone stab over hundred time to my heart by a knife.
They broke the kiss and bakugou looked at me. "But todoroki, feelings are not for play games. You just used me. Took advantage from me. All the time, always. How dare you? If you told me about truth or dare game, i will understand you. I hate you. I hate you sooo much. Attention seeker.
"But you said you love me, right?" I asked with sobbing. Why am i crying? Why those words hurt me this much? I cant understand. This is too much.
"Just go and kill yourself. I dont want to see your face ever again." He said and left the room with kirishma.
"Bakugou wait... i want t-"

"hot....

Icy.....hot....

Icyhot..

.

It was just a dream. Just die or i will kill you."

"Bakugou," i woke up. I was in my room. Bakugou was looking at me with annoying face. "Thank god.. it was just a dream."
"What happened? You okay? You started to saying some weird stuff. Like..."
"Like?"
"Never mind it. So tell me what happened?"
I hugged a pillow.
"Mm... icyhot,do you need something? I mean like water or tea or ju-"
"A glass of water. Plz" i said.
"Okay just take some rest. I will come."
He said and left the room.

"Why.. why.. it was only few hours. But why i feel this much guilty?"