Do I bore you?

•°|Are we really just friends? - Chapter 11|°•

Tommy's Pov

He got up and then he...

He stood in front of me, i felt embarrassed and looked down, anywhere where i didn't have to look Ranboo in the eyes. I felt as if my mum yelled at me, as if i got grounded for something stupid i did. He took my hands into his, catching me by surprise looking back up at him. "Tommy I'm.. I'm so confused" He looked me in the eyes and i couldn't help but feel guilty, "I'm sorry Ran.. I just, i just don't know what to do" I looked back down again. He took one of his hands off my hand and brought it to my face, then he made me look at him, again. "Are we really just friends?" His face tinted pink, looking me straight in the eyes. Ranboo doesn't like eye contact, but I'm guessing he's letting this slide. Just this once. "I..I don't know. Do you just want to stay friends?" Now it was my turn to catch him off guard, "or would you like to pretend we feel absolutely nothing towards each other, that non of this ever happened and move on with our lives." He was looking straight at me, like he knew the answer but was afraid to say it. Scared of rejection, scared of what i think.

But so was I

I was scared of rejection, i was scared of what Ranboo would think of me, i was scared of what he'd do if he'd find out i might be gay. Am i gay? Surely i still like women right? That's my whole motto! "Tommy the wife haver" not "Tommy the Ranboo haver." But Ranboo is unlabeled himself, he wouldn't mind..would he? Well obviously he wouldn't, he's not homophobic.

We stood there hand in hand, awkwardly standing there. "Boo, listen I'm sorry, i don't know what has gotten into me. I don't usually act like some high school teenage girl. You've just been.. making me feel weird. And.. and i just don't know if it's a good weird or bad weird. I want to believe it's good but..." I was caught off guard when suddenly Ranboo just picked me up bridle style. Well this is new. When the fuck do your friends just pick you up mid conversation. Hmm "friends" yeah friends i guess. "Yeah, i guess i don't want to just stay friends." My heart skipped a beat. In what way does he mean that? Does he hate me? "I think i want to be more then friends, Tommy" Now i was red. redder then a tomato, if possible.

He sits us down on my bed. "I would like that too." We lay down, feet intertwined, hands clasped together. "But I'm scared. What if we wouldn't work out? What if we ruin our friendship?" I mumble into his hair. "I don't think we'd ruin our friendship. I love you Tommy, and depending on whether you do too i don't think its possible to ruin our friendship unless one of us is abusive or possessive, causing an unhealthy relationship. Relationships are meant to teach you, improve on your past mistakes so you don't make them on the next person. It's a learning experience. I might sound creep and i promise i don't mean to, but, i've been thinking of you every night. In not such a friend way, at first i didn't understand why. But hearing you say all that i realize i love you." He squishes his face in my chest more, feeling embarrassed with a red face"

" I guess you're right. I'd love to be with you. That is if you want to as well" I begin to feel tiredness wash over me. "I'd love that Tommy. We can talk about this more later, I feel as if I'm about to fall asleep" He mumbles under his breath. "mm, yeah me to.." We soon drift off to sleep.

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A/N

Hello! New chapter, finally am i right?

Sorry for not updating for some time. My GCSE's are really taking a toll on me leaving me with barley any time to spare. Especially art and English literature GCSE. I wouldn't switch It tho. However I've got barley any homework this weekend!

I'm also sorry for how short this story is, greatest apologies.

I would like to also announce (something i probably should've announced some time ago lol) that I have a new? Yeah new ig story. It's called Domestic bliss and if you click on my profile you should be able to find it. It's honestly one of the proudest stories I've ever written (aside from this one). Apart from maybe three spelling mistakes..? And possibly 5 or 4 missing commas, It's actually pretty good. I'd love for it to get some attention as much as this Tomboo book. Although you don't necessarily have to go and read it, it would be nice. Also anyone from that book, i will possibly be updating it today, releasing chapter 2!

Other then that, thank you for all the people who's been reading this book. I am extremely thankful.

Stay safe y'all. Love you all <33