Queen Dragoness of Eirvoth

I: Lone Dragoness

AURORA

Three decades ago, this realm was invaded by demons. When we, the dwellers, thought we were amazing ever since mana was discovered, the demons wiped away our arrogant thoughts and showed us the true terror of magic. I was born a Dragon, said to be a creature that contains mana and manipulates them at will. My attribute is frost. I am the Frost Dragoness.

It took us an entire two decades to finally settle the war. The war ended, and our peace was retained. All species made a pact with one another, truly ending any hatred and hostility towards one another. From there on, we have been living in peace.

But I can't help but miss it sometimes. Am I evil for saying that? Am I a villain for wanting to return the time to how it was? Am I?...

Will someone tell me how much of a monster I am if people can read thoughts? This random thoughts that kills my justification, when did it all started?

I didn't just randomly think about it that way. It was ever since I became the queen, life has been meaningless. My routine remained unchanged for the past few years when the kingdom started stabilizing itself, and when looked at a certain way, it felt like a bad thing. Of course, I can't deny having peace in Eirvoth is something that I have worked hard for. I went through hell just so I could see the graceful expression of the civilians. Their laugh, their liveliness, it's all music to my ears.

My heart feels warm whenever I wake up in the morning, inching at the end of the balcony just so I can see the kids playing around by the town. Then the adults by the market area. Humans and beasts getting rowdy in the guild, or even the elves and the dwarves getting themselves into trouble for yet another useless fight. It stirs my heart. I kept telling myself, "This is what I've worked for. This is the result. Eirvoth is full of life." And it felt wonderful.

At least, that's what I wanted to feel.

This feeling is like a thorn in my flesh, constantly nagging me as a reminder of the act I hate the most. Whenever I see someone talking with their friends, I always wonder, "If things were different, would I too gain such friends?". My thoughts are a mixture of disgust and resentment. What happened that day opened my vision of what others will do to survive.

Abandoned, powerless, lifeless, helpless... I dreaded it.

KNOCK KNOCK

"Your majesty?" The knocking comes before the voice. It must be one of my maids.

I shake my head, a palm groping my chest where my heart is to feel my heart beating faster than usual. My rage swallowed me for a second when I recalled those bitter memories. I know it made me feel distant, but if that were the answer to prevent the same from happening, what more can I ask than just for a little piece of my heaven.

I cleared my throat, putting on a raspy voice before saying. "Come in." I exit the balcony to stand in the middle of my room.

The door opens, and the maid follows, bringing only a mana orb that I specifically requested the other night. This maid of mine hails from the beast kind. She's a reptilian and has almost the same body as mine, except she's a little more "Modernized", I would say. She had a scaly green body, white painted on her front body, a long spiny tail, refined maw with clean white teeth symmetrically aligned, two large blue eyes and well-kept claws.

I handpicked the maid's dress just for her. She wore a simple yet elegant gown made of silk, the mixture colour of a deep royal black and white that complimented her figure. The skirt is longer to fit her tall and slender body, and unlike the other maids, her dress is that of a higher-quality material.

This is the design that I recommended to her.

"Good morning, your majesty."

Her voice sounds confident. She bows down to me as she completes her three steps inside my room, having both her fingers lift on her skirt slightly with a graceful sway of her wrist. One of her legs is on the front, and the other crosses it with a slight bent. It's a usual greeting she would give me whenever she attends to me.