Alive but always dead (Completed. Wattpadaward14)

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I can see your not yourself

Even when you're here with me

I know you're somewhere else

(Heart skips a beat- Olly Murs)

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Aimlea's POV

I splashed the water over my face then dried it using the shadows. My skin was pale and my eyes had bags underneath them. I looked dead. Well, I was dead but you know what I meant. I closed my glowing eyes and instantly the dream returned to me.

Caison's eyes were like honey.The little snippets my mind brought together remade my dream. I love you. Those words. The words he said before he killed me. They made my  heart want to start beating again and it made me feel alive. 

Reality crashed down on me. You were alive in the dream so it wasn't real. Besides, Caison hates you. He saw you kill someone close to him so he hates you. and I have a feeling he will have to hate you more when you get more lists.

 The bitch inside my head taunted me and before I had control my hand has pushed forward and the mirror had smashed. "Shit." I swore at the pieces of glass deep in my skin.

"Ammy are you ok!?" Kat's panicked voice made me laugh. "Yes Kat I'm fine." I shook my head then froze. You called her Kat? The voice was as confused as I was.

Suddenly the door burst open and Kat was standing at the door. I mean Kaitalin. Argh, screw it just call her Kat. The voice instructed me.

I opened my mouth to tell her to get out of the bathroom when she squealed and wrapped her arms around me and squeezed in a tight, friendly hug.

" You called me Kat! Yay! My Ammy is back! Tell me you remember school! Tell me you remember all the boys and the shopping trips! Do you remember that dress you loved? The denim one?"

The questions streamed out of her mouth. I returned the hug hoping she would let go and she did. "No. I just called you Kat as a nickname since you call me Ammy." I answered and her face fell slightly. "oh." She blushed then walked out of the bathroom. 

I closed the door and showered before drying myself. I turned to the full length mirror and looked at my naked body.

My torso was scar free apart from the one along my stomach. I must have had a make-over before I died because my body was free of hair apart from on my head.

I hadn't seen my body since I had died. I had seen my face but that was it. My skin was paler than usual but was still fairly tanned.

I grabbed my underwear and pulled it on then returned to the mirror. I looked at my body shape like a living girl my age would. I was actually quite curvy. I pulled my hair up revealing my neck, then I noticed something on the side of it. 

It was a small Tattoo. Wow, you really are unabsorvant. I shut the voice out and studied it. It was the letter A in curvy font, hooked onto the end of the A was a K with little cat ears on. My eyes widened slightly.

I quickly got dressed into my usual black clothes and grabbed a hair band from Kat's bedside table. I pulled my hair into a ponytail and walked into the bedroom.

"Kat. Did you know I had a tattoo?" I asked her curiously and her eyes lighted up.

"You found your tattoo! I was there when you had it done! It was a promise. That we would be friends forever. can I see it. You had it done the day you died so I never saw it fully healed." She answered and I saw the honesty in her eyes.