After 'Happily Ever After'

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"I promise to apply aloe Vera on your stretch marks everyday when I get you pregnant" he said smug while the priest looks at him in disbelief

I wonder who was taking the footage, the camera is shaky, and the person behind it whistles in approval of the vow.
What kind of life was a living with this man before he got rich? Were we poor? because what other explanation would there be for this kind of wedding.

We're at home affairs, my family isn't present, it's just us, the priest and this ill mannered cameraman who keeps talking and cheering over us

I have on a blue denim jacket, a short white dress on, paired with white airforce 1s. The faux locks I have on, are tied into a messy bun and I'm staring into this man's eyes with the biggest smile on my face.

He has on black jeans and a grey Tshirt combo and seems confident, somewhat playful. (I wonder if we knew we were going to get married that day, we dressed like we're on an errand run)
I seem in love, it's heart breaking because I can barely remember him, let alone our life together
The courtroom seems too small and cluttered with papers and files that it looks like a shed.
Someone is going to have to explain to me why we got married this way.
I've always wanted a cute ceremony with my family, preferably on some destination if not at a cute chapel

"And I promise not to mind when your hormones make you hate me, or when you eat the food off my plate even though you have your own. You're my best friend, my family and the best thing to ever happen to me.
I promise to grow and change with you provided you don't stress me into an early grave"

"Molefe!?" I playfully smack his arm when he says this

"You think I don't know about the online shopping? And the excessive butter you use when cooking for me? At least I'll die well fed" he says laughing

"Sickness and in health is covered then" the priest says with a smile

"Yeah, guess that's all folks. Your turn" he says smiling. He looks so happy with himself I can't help smile back as I watch our wedding day video

"I love you, and it'll never change, so please my brother, don't make me regret this decision I'm taking today" I say

"Bathong wena Lerato!!" The cameraman says dramatically

Jay is laughing and the priest is shaking his head in mild confusion and disappointment.

As funny as it is to watch, what kind of vows are these, I barely recognize myself, I seem carefree and goofy.
Not at all who I am right now or the person I thought I was before the memory loss. The feeling of happiness is now foreign to me and it's overwhelming how much I crave it now, I feel like I no longer can get happy, not as happy as this spring chicken version of me I'm staring at.

Jay hugs me while still laughing, I can't hear what he's whispering but I blush and hide my face deeper into his neck after my unnecessarily short vow.
This is the man I ran from? Just to go and be with Thabo who barely held me, let alone make me feel safe in his energy the way this man seems to make me feel. The love is evident even through this old wedding video

This is not at all how I pictured my wedding but I look so happy, I can't help think, it was the best way to do it.
It's strange knowing someone loves you when you can't return the love because God knows I want to love and be loved.
These past few months have been hell, memory loss aside, I lost my parents, my sister dissappeared and I don't even know how to do my job.
I'm sure they kept me for this long out of pity

I just want to be held and told that everything will be alright, that I don't have to do this life thing all by myself. Why did Jay leave me? Even if I couldn't remember him? It's not like I remembered anyone other than my family