What Happens Next?

Chapter 3

A/N: PLEASE READ! I know I said I wouldn't do an author's note and all that, but I felt I needed to say some things before this chapter. First off this story is purely FICTION! I do NOT support suicide in any way shape or form. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide for ANY reason, please reach out to someone. Here is the national suicide prevention hotline : 1-800-273-8255. Believe it or not it was actually difficult for me to write the end of this chapter. I promise you the moral of this story is in fact that one should NOT commit suicide. It is up to YOU if you want to continue to read this chapter or skip on. I personally don't think its that terrible, but just as a precaution. Everyone has their own opinion. Please don't think too much on this. Again this story is FICTION. I tried not to go into detail as you will see. So please keep that in mind as you read. If you have any questions please ask. Thank you.

Chapter 3

We arrived at the movie theater and the previews were still going on thankfully. Unfortunately the theater was packed and the only seats available were in pairs on opposite ends of the room. We took our seats with Aaron sitting next to Amy in the front, and me next to Mr. Ego in the back corner. I didn't know his name so he would be Mr. Ego for now. I was not looking forward to watching the movie in awkward silence with him.

"Hey, um sorry about um earlier, I didn't really mean what I said." I apologized. Awkward.

"S'okay," He shrugged staring at the screen not looking at me.

The lights dimmed signalling the start of the film.

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"That movie was sick!" Aaron said jumping up and down in excitement.

"Yea it was!" Amy agreed. " I can't believe they didn't actually tell us what happened!"

"It's obvious he was reincarnated," replied Mr. Ego. "Why do you think they're making a sequel?"

I was surprised to hear him talk since he hadn't said anything to me since I apologized. The three of them were now engaged in a conversation about the movie and the sequel as we exited the theater. I remained quiet in deep thought about the movie as well. I agreed with Amy; I can't believe the ending! Stupid movie industry just trying to make money off a sequel. Don't get me wrong, the movie was actually pretty good. It just left me with more questions than I had before watching it. They showed us 4 different endings and the last one was of him going to heaven. I thought it would end that way, but then the screen went black and there was flash of someone opening their eyes and then the credits were up.

Did I really think this movie would be the answer to all my questions? Haha, as if, my subconscious told me. Now I wanted to find out what really happened even more, if that was even possible. But...how? There was only one thought that popped in my mind...No...I couldn't...could I? You could, but you'd regret it. It's a stupid idea isn't it? Yes. But think of the possibilities! What if I'm reincarnated? Would I want to experience every moment of the past 17 years again... It doesn't work that way. You won't remember anything, duh! Oh, right. Ugh! So many questions! Do I really have to wait another 60 or so years or for some terrible accident to happen to find this out? That's usually how it works. I was having a full blown conversation/argument with my subconscious until I was interrupted.

"Zoe? Earth to Zoe," Amy called my name waving a hand in my face. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah, sorry I sorta zoned out." Everyone was staring at me like I had a third arm or something. Was I zoned out for that long? I pushed my hair behind my ear nervously.

"I'm fine, I'm fine. The movie was good," I said hoping to reassure everyone that I was okay.

I made eye contact with Mr. Ego. He looked at me as if he knew what I was just thinking about. I looked away pushing some more of my hair behind my ear.

"I don't know about you guys but I'm hungry," said Aaron. "Pizza?"

"Sure-"

"No-" Mr. Ego and I said simultaneously. Amy was the only one who agreed.

"Sorry, but I think I just wanna go home," I said

"Same here," Mr. Ego agreed.

"Okay.. Well how 'bout I drop you two off at home and Amy and I will grab something to eat?" Aaron said more to Amy than to us.

We agreed as we made our way to the car.

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I was now at home again after being dropped off. My parents were still not home yet. Of course. I made my way up to my room and sat on my bed. I know what you're thinking. Maybe you should talk to someone.. My subconscious was back. How about I make a list of all the reasons I should and all the reasons I shouldn't and see which one outweighs the other? I tried to negotiate with myself as I got out a pencil and paper. This is ridiculous.

A minute later I had one thing written down on my so called list. My subconscious laughed. You didn't even try. Maybe I was a little blinded by the one reason why I thought I should. So I'm really gonna do this huh? It appears so... Well..what now? How am I going to do this?

I decided to write a letter to my parents and Amy. I didn't want them to think I was like depressed or anything. How considerate of you! Why don't you leave some flowers too. Shut up! Do you really think this is going to make it hurt any less? I ignored my subconscious as I walked into the bathroom with the letter in my hand shaking nervously. I opened the medicine cabinet and stared at myself in the mirror. Well this is it.

For some reason Mr. Ego chose this time to pop into my mind. The last thing I remember were those chocolate brown eyes and my subconscious making one last attempt to change my mind....