Dear Austin,
If time came to end today, and we left too many things to say,
If we could turn it back, what would we want to change?
But now it’s time to take a chance,
Come on we gotta make a stand,
What have we got to lose? The choice is in our hands.
And we can find a way, to do anything, if we try to.
‘Live Like There’s No Tomorrow’ by Selena Gomez use to be my favourite song because it was very inspirational. I liked the meaning.
But now, I approach it differently.
“If time came to an end today, and we left too many things to say, if we could turn it back, what would we want to change?” I use to think that I would want to say what I didn’t. But now I know that something’s are better left unsaid, like what Joel told me last night. I wish he hadn’t.
“What have we got to lose? The choice is in our hands.” I use to agree completely. We’re young and got nothing to lose and it’s my life, my choice. But now I see. I use to have so many things to lose- my friends, family and all my possessions. Now, I’ve given them all up. Well, they gave up on me. And sometimes, making your own choices can lead you down the wrong road.
“And we can find a way to do anything if we try to.” This is the only part I don’t think of differently.
The thing is, Austin, I use to be glad to have things at stake because I knew that there were people who cared. But then I had nothing that I truly cared for and, believe me, things were so much easier. Now, I think there are things I care for again.
I don’t push them away because I don’t want to see them leave me the way others have left. But I don’t let them in because I don’t want to be hurt again.
Help.
Love, Jai.
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Another cross. 161 days.
“Why do you carry that book with you everywhere?” Jayden asks.
“Because I do.” I reply. Jayden and I are on the balcony. The dogs are inside, doing whatever they do when I’m with Jayden.
“What are the crosses for?”
“They're counters.”
“I guessed. But what are you counting?”
“Things you wouldn’t understand.” I sigh and sip my tea.
“Of course I’d understand.” Jayden protests.
I wave my hand, “Nevermind about it.”
We sit silently for a few seconds. Jayden breaks it, “I’m going to get some tea.”
I nod. Jayden smiles slightly and goes in. Joel comes out to join me.
“You don’t have to worry, Joel.” I assure him, “Jayden won't hurt me.”
“I know but you're like my little sister. I can't help it.”
“I’m not your sister.” I snap back, “You have your own sister. Why can't you take care of her? I don’t need another brother looking out for me.”
Joel heaves the door open again, “Fine! So I’ll leave you alone then! You already have your big brother, Trent to look out for you so fine but when Jayden hurts you and your heart is in tiny pieces all over the floor, just remember- Joel Goncalves doesn’t vacuum!” He slams the door shut and storms inside.
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