Flowers ( Jake Kiszka fic)

Chapter 10

Josh, Danny, and Sam were in the living room with Jake talking, while I was in the kitchen making tea. " Dude, your sleeping with Sawyer." Sam says, " Yeah, so?" I can hear them talking because there is a wall that has an archway that leads into the hall, then you turn left and there is the living room. I get a cup from the cabinet and pour my hot water on the tea packet that is in the cup.

" Hey, Sawyer how's it going?" I turn around and see Danny pulling out one of the bar stools and sitting in it. " It's going pretty great, how about you?" I grab my cup and join Danny, sitting on the bar stools next to him. " It's good, my girlfriend is coming to visit me tomorrow!" He says excitingly, I smile. Danny and I talk when I hear, " JAKE, OUR ALBUM IS COMING OUT THIS MONTH, SO SHE CANT BE MESSING THINGS UP!" I hear Josh yell. I look at Danny with a confused face.

I get up and walk to the living room. Danny was right behind me, I get to the living room. Sam and Josh are on the couch and Jake are in one of the chairs. I look at Jake and he looks at me. " What is he talking about?" I say with confusion in my voice, " Nothing, he talking about nothing." Jake says the air is tense in the room now. I wanna know what the fuck Jake is hiding from me because I know he has not been honest with me since I first met him. He gets up and tries to walk to me, but I take a step back. " Jake, you didn't tell her?" Sam says, I look at Sam. " Tell me what?" I look at Josh then Danny, " Nothing, STUT the FUCK UP SAM!" Jake says, I look back at Jake. " Goddamit Jake, tell me please!" I look at him with tears in my eyes, " I don't want to ruin things with us." Jake says looking down, " Please, please Jakey!" I say now let the tears fall from my cheek. " I can't," Jake says sounding like he is crying.

I feel the guy's eyes on me. I feel like I can't breathe. I run into the room, pack my stuff in my bag then put on my shoes, and walked out. Jake walked to me, " Please, don't go we can work it out!" He pleaded he is now crying. I look at him, " Jacob, I can't be with someone who keeps secrets, trust me I already have had that, and let me tell you it almost ended badly for me" I cry, I walk past him and his brothers, but stop at the door and turn around to look at them and Jake. " It was nice meeting you guys, and Jake." He looks at me, " ...I-I..I loved every second we spent together, and I hoped I didn't 'mess things up' . See you later J-Jake-y" I cry and turn back around, and walked out the door to my car.

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I have been driving for about two hours listening to music and crying. My phone has been blowing up with missed calls from Jake, Evelen, and my sisters, but I don't answer them. I then get to Jake and I's spot on the cliff where we had our date, I grab my jacket because it started sprinkling a little bit. I sit down, pulled out my phone, and played music and that's when I broke down. I just sat there listening to music and balled my eyes out. It started to rain hard, so I sat up and looked up at the sky and screamed as loud as I could just to let some anger out. After I was down at our spot and soaking wet. I walked back to my car and drove home.

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The elevator doors open. I walk off and towards my apartment, I unlock the door and walk in. " Thank fucking god! you're ok." Evelen gets up off the couch and walks toward me. I was still looking down. " Jake called me and said you ran out of his house." She says, I look up at her, and she sees my red eyes and my puffy face. " Are you ok, Soy?" El says with concern in her voice. Her just saying it makes me break down in front of her again. Evelen ran to me and hugged me as tight as she could. " It's ok, your ok," she says into my ear trying to calm me down. That night I didn't sleep alone I had to sleep in Evelen's room with her because I couldn't be in my room because it reminded me of him.

**Jake's POV**

" JAKE, ARE ALBUM IS COMING OUT THIS MONTH, SO SHE CAN"T MESS IT UP!" Josh yells I was about to yell back at him for what he said about my girlfriend, but when I looked up I made eye contact with her, and with Danny right behind her. " What is he talking about?" She says with confusion in her voice. SHIT, " Nothing, he's talking about nothing. " I say, the air in the room is now so tense you could cut it with a knife. I get up out of the chair and walk towards her, but she takes a step back. I get a little ping of pain straight in my chest.

" Jake, you didn't tell her?" Sam says I could kill him right now. I look at him with a death stare, " Tell me what?" I turn about to Sawyer and she looks at Sam, Josh, and Danny. " NOTHING, SHUT THE FUCK UP SAM!" I yell, then she looks back at me, " Goddamit, Jake, tell me please!" She looks up at me with tears in her eyes. FUCK! " I don't want to ruin things with us. " I say breaking eye contact with her to look down at the floor. " Please, Please Jakey!" She says now crying, DAMIT she used the nickname that she gave me when we met. " I can't," I say now letting my tears fall. I look up and see that he has run to our room. " Jake, I'm sorry I didn't mean it in that way," Josh said. " Fuck you, Josh" I look at him crying.

She walks back out with her bags in her hands. " Please don't go, we can work it out!" I plead, crying my eyes out. Sawyer looks at me, " Jacob.." Shit, she used my full name. "I can't be with someone who keeps secrets, trust me I already have had that, and let me tell you it almost ended badly for me" She cries and walks past me towards the door, but stops and turns around. " It was nice meeting you guys, and Jake" I look at her with more tears in my eye, FUUCCKKK. "..I-I...I loved every second we spent together, and I hoped I didn't 'mess things up'. See you later J-Jake-y" Sawyer cries and turns back around and before I could stop or say something the door closed and just like that my flower is gone.

Just like that she's gone. I lost the only thing that made me smile, laugh, and love. Danny, Sam, and Josh tried to calm me down and be there for me, but I told them I needed to be alone right now. So here I am alone in the house that always made me happy with the person who made me happy. I have been crying and I threw a couple of plates and cups on the ground then broke down crying again on the kitchen floor. I get up and walked to the door, I walk into the rain. I needed to get out of the house and I wanted to take a walk. I called Evelen earlier to see if Sawyer came back to their apartment, but she didn't and I was a little worried. I didn't tell her that Sawyer and I got in a fight and ended things because honestly if I did I think I would just break down again.

I'd been walking for hours in the pouring rain, but I didn't mind because I remember when me and Sawyer were laying in bed together one afternoon and her saying, " We should go dance in the rain together." She said, looking up at me. I smile and kiss the tip of her nose. " It's too cold, I'm warm right here with my flower." She smiles and tries to get up, but I grab her arm and pulled her back into my arms. " Fine, I guess we can stay in bed!" I laugh and kiss her head.

"FUCK" I yell out loud. I walk back to our house and grabbed a blanket and a change of clothes and lay on the couch. I can't go into that room and sleep in that bed that we used to share. I know for a fact that it smells just like her. That night I slept in the living room thinking about the love of my life and knew I screwed up.