It's been a week since me and Jake broke up. I finally was able to be back in my room. I did some spring cleaning even though it was October but, you know what I mean. I haven't left my room since then, Evelen is worried about me but I keep telling her to stop and that I'm fine. But we all know that is not true.
I'm right now laying on my bed, going through my photos and videos of me and Jake. It was thunder storming outside and usually, I would be pumped and excited but all I wanted to do was cry in a hole and never come out. I was scrolling when I came across this one video that I took. Jake wanted to stay the night, he was in the kitchen we had music playing in the background, and 'One Direction' " No Control" came on he was singing it and I couldn't stop laughing. I soon after joined him and we were singing it together, untell I told him I was going to send it to his brothers.
He started chasing after me and I bolted, he caught me and pined me to the couch and that's when the video stopped. I was already crying but, that made it worse now I was full-blown bawling. I heard a soft knock on my door. " C-come in," I say, Evelen "Hey, Taylor and I are going to his parent's house for a little, you ok to be here alone?" She says in a worried voice. I nodded my head and she smiles and left the room, soon after I heard the apartment door close.
** 1 hour later**
I wanted to do something instead of being stuck in this stupid apartment alone. So I got dressed and headed out the door.
This is the outfit, but without the handbag:
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I haven't taken to George since before the breakup. So I was speed walking to the elevator. I start my car and went to the record store. It was still pouring outside when I pulled up in front of it. I parked the car and got out. I just stud there for a second and looked up at the sky and closed my eyes and took a deep breath. After a second I walked into the store, " Holy shit! She's alive!" I turn my head to the register and see Joni with a smile on her face, I smile back at her and walked up to her and she gave me a big hug and kissed the side of my head. " How's my little sis doing?" She says, " I could be better," I say with a raspy voice. " Do you want to talk about it? WildFlower is getting food so she is not here right now if you want to wait for her." Joni says, I nod my head " Yeah, can we wait because I want to talk to both of my best friends." I say, Joni nods her head.
Flower got back about 30 minutes ago and we were sitting in the lounge area, which is where you pick a vinyl you want to liscen to and walk to where we are right now and put it in one of the record players, and sit down in one of the chairs and put the headphones on and groove out to the music. I told Joni and Flower everything from start to finish. " At that point when I was standing in front of him and the guys it reminded me of Tom, and I NEVER want to relive that!" I say, I managed to blink away the tears. " Sawyer, Tom was a dick!"
** Flashback of Tom***
Trigger warning
" You fucking bitch!" Tom yelled at me, I've been dating Tom for about 2 years, and at first, it was the best, we even got an apartment together and I fell in love hard. He was my prince Charming, untell he started drinking and drinking. He wouldn't stop and one night I came home from Evelen's and When I walked in Tom and his friends were drinking and talking. " He-y b-baby" Tom said drunk. " Hey-y hoot s-Stuf-f" His friend Harry says giving me a weird look. I was about to walk to our room when Tom stopped me, "Where do you think you're going?" He says with dark hooded eyes. I push him away but that didn't work because he slapped me across the face and then he started touching me and soon Harry started to touch me too, Tom stopped and just watch Harry touch me in places I didn't want to be touched in. I was crying on the floor while Harry was on top of my naked bodied. I turn my head to the side and saw Tom and the rest of his friends watching Harry rape me.
*** End of flashback***
" The stupid part about this whole breakup is that I still love him, even if he lied to me." My voice cracked. They got up and gave me a group hug. I spent the day with them at the record store. WildFlower and Joni cheered me up when the store closed. We were right now back at Flower and Joni's place listening to One Direction. We were drinking and let's just say I had a little too much. " I, I WANNA SAVE YOU WANNA SAVE YOUR HEART TONIGHT!" I singing. I was having the best night of my life. That night all my problems went away, he went away. I was happy, I was with the people I love, my best friends, my sisters.
*** Author Note**
Sorry that I haven't updated in a minute I just haven't been inspired and pls I feel like nobody likes this story so I'm thinking what's the point. Comment if you want more!
