Loving You Painfully

Capítulo 1

Maybe I'm one of the unluckiest when it comes to love even though I try and force myself to feel something that they can't give me, I don't know why they can't love me.

I stopped in my thoughts when someone called me.

"Aviel". I smiled when I saw who it was, my boyfriend Lev.

I stood up from my seat and approached him, as usual he wasn't smiling, I always wondered why every time we met he couldn't even smile at me.

"Lev, how was your practice? You sweat a lot. Where's your towel? So I can wipe your sweat."

I was about to open his bag to get his towel but he slapped my hand, I was surprised and looked at him confused. "What's wrong? Are you mad?" I asked him with teary eyes.

I refrain from crying in front of him because he might yell at me again, I don't understand him, he's always like this, when I cry he tells me to stop being artistic, he says I'm just being dramatic.
Maybe he's just always tired from their training so he's always hot headed.

I forced myself to smile at him.
He looked at me blankly again, and say. "Go home first, my team mates invited me to have a drink, I can't take you to your house."

That's when my smile disappeared. isn't he even worried that I will go home alone? He would rather have a drink with his friends than take me to our house.

I forced myself to smile at him. "Alright, I'm going home. Be careful, huh? Be careful when you go home, don't get drunk." He didn't answer but just nodded.
I approached him and kissed him on the cheek.

In the end, I went home alone to our house, it's sad to think that he doesn't feel any love for me, but I just laughed thinking how could he not love me? I'm his girlfriend, Lev definitely loves me, I'm sure .

When I got home, the first thing I saw was mom. I approached her to kiss her but she avoided.

"Why did you come home late? You waited for your boyfriend again? That's why people say you're flirtatious. You always put that guy first." After she told me those hurtful words she glared at me and left me.

The tears that I had been holding back all the time started to fall. I don't understand why mom always says only hurtful words to me.

While crying, I forced myself to go to my room. When I got to my room I remembered Lev, I hadn't called him yet maybe he was drunk already. I wiped my tears and dialed Lev's number.

My cellphone kept ringing but no one answered me, after several attempts to contact Lev, he finally answered.

'Hello? Lev-' I was suddenly cut off by the woman who spoke on the other line.

'Hello, who is it? why are you calling Treyton?' It is obvious in the woman's voice that she has a bad attitude.

'Uhm, I think I should be the one asking you that. why are you holding Lev's cellphone? where is he?'

Who is this woman and why is she holding my boyfriend's cell phone?
'Excuse me? who are you to ask me like that? who are you? huh?'

I'm starting to get discouraged again because of the things that enter my brain. Who is that girl? Why is she holding Lev's cellphone? Who is she? What is she to Lev?

'Babe who is that?' I heard Lev's voice. Babe? Who is he calling Babe? Is that the woman on the other line? It means that they are really together.

I couldn't take it anymore so I ended the call. Is it just like this from my parents who think I'm flirtatious to him who cheats on me?

I cried all night and all night I wondered why my boyfriend could cheat on me, why I couldn't feel that someone loves me.

I woke up hearing my mother scream. "Viel!? Wake up, you're really lazy, you haven't changed. You came home late yesterday and you woke up late today."

I closed my eyes tightly, I slept with a bad mood, then I would wake up to be greeted like this. I'm starting to cry again.

But I restrained myself, and forced myself to take a shower to go to school.

When I arrived at school, I looked at my cellphone and saw that it was still early. so I decided to go to Lev's building first so we could talk.

When I arrived at their building, I asked his classmates where he was. Someone told me that he was on the rooftop, so I went there.

I was just on the stairs when I heard someone talking, it was a woman and a man. I could tell it was Lev but I didn't know which woman he was talking to.

I peeked first so they wouldn't see me but I was surprised to see that they were both kissing. It is obvious from the woman's posture that she grew up in a rich family, she looks sophisticated.

I just felt my tears keep falling like falls.
I couldn't move from where I was standing, does that mean he was really cheating on me. Is that the woman who answered my call last night?

While in tears I left that place because I couldn't watch them kissing, I couldn't accept that Lev was cheating on me. How can he do this to me?

The whole day ended without me being myself, fortunately no professor entered our room.

While walking I saw Lev, I quickly went to where he was and asked him if we could talk and he agreed.

"Hey Lev, how are you, I haven't contacted you since last night." I lied to him.

He took a deep breath and looked at me. "I'm fine, well nothing much happened when my teammates invited me."

His voice was so cold, he really didn't miss me. I smiled so sweetly at him even though inside I was very hurt. "Can we go out or date? I miss you so much." He sighed and agreed.

I am very happy because even though I know that he was forced to come with me, he still agreed.

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