Loving You Painfully

Capítulo 2

We went to the mall. I'm so happy because we've been in a relationship for a year and we rarely go out or go on dates.

I hold his hand. He looked at me in surprise, but I smiled at him sweetly.

"Let's go over there, let's play." I invited him to the playground inside the mall.

"This motor racing is the first one we will play okay?" I asked him with a smile.
"All right." he answered me simply.

"What's wrong Lev, smile at me, can you?"
I told him while laughing. I want to enjoy this day because it means so much to me.

He stared at me and forced a smile.

"You look more handsome when you smile. You should always smile." Ang gwapo na niya, tapos lalo pa siyang nagiging gwapo.

While we were playing, he was always smiling.

"Lev! it's so fast. Oh My Gosh." I told him while laughing. I'm so happy today, I don't feel any emotional pain.

He looked at me while laughing.
"What did you choose? Maybe it's because you chose fast that's why it was so fast." I was stunned by him, I wish we could always be like this. I hope he is always happy with me, I hope I am the one who makes him happy.

The smile on his lips disappeared, and he looked at me confused. "Viel, are you okay?" he asked me confusedly.

I shook my head at him and smiled. "I'm fine, don't worry." Ganito pala yung feeling ng nag-aalala siya sakin, sobrang nanatuwa.

Time passed and we played different games inside the mall. After we finished playing, we ate at a fast food chain inside the mall.

After we finished eating, we decided to go home because it was getting late at night.

"I'll take you to your house, it's getting late." I have no intention of refusing, of course. It's been a long time since the last day he dropped me off at our house.

I smiled at him and nodded. I held his hand and we walked together.

"It's been a while since the last time you dropped me off at our house, right?" I asked him while looking at where we were walking.

I saw in my peripheral vision that he turned to me.

"Ah, yes, that was a long time ago."

"I miss this bonding of ours. I hope we can always be like this." Sana nga ay palagi tayong ganito Lev, sobra na kasi kitang na-mimiss.

He didn't answer me anymore. When we got to the parking lot, he opened the door of his car to let me in.

"My boyfriend is so sweet huh.." I teased him.

"Stop teasing me." He glared at me.

Tinawanan ko lang naman siya.

While his car was taking the road back to our house, we were both silent.

I am very grateful because we were together today, I don't regret that I didn't confront him because in return we were both happy. Maybe I should just let it go and give him a second chance, maybe he just made a mistake.

When we got to the house, I said goodbye to him, but before I got out of his car, I smiled at him.

"I forgive you."

He looked at me in surprise. He wanted to say something but I got out of his car.

I was very tired all day, but it was worth it because I was with Lev.

They are already asleep, but I have a spare key. After I changed my clothes, I immediately went to sleep.

I woke up and went to school like before.

When I arrived at the school, I saw the students running towards the gymnasium.

So I asked one of the students why they were running to the gymnasium.

"The dean said to go there, they are going to announce something." The woman said. I nodded and thanked her.

I immediately went to the gymnasium.

"Good morning to all of you. There are many of you here again so I will start the announcement so you can get back to your work. We have an exchange student at another school, and I have already selected among the students here that we can exchange with another school. And those are Treyton Lev Monteleone, Amari Gael Lorenzo, Annandale Harris. We will send them three as exchange students at Fordham University." I was stunned by what the Dean said.

Isn't that a school in New York? Does that mean he's going to New York? But what about me? How about us? How is our relationship? I have so many questions in my mind.

I left the Gymnasium confused. I feel like I'm floating and I don't understand anything around me.

The afternoon passed I was very upset. I didn't go home to see Lev because I wanted to talk to him.

I saw him coming out of their building and talking to a man.

I approached him and called him.
He turned to me, the man he was talking already left.

"Why did you come here? Do you need something?" I was taken aback by his question. Seriously? I'm his girlfriend and then he'll ask me why I'm here?

I stopped thinking about things.
"Is it true? You're going to New York?" I tearfully asked him.

He looked at me blankly. "Yes I'm going to Ney York, didn't you listen to what Dean said earlier?" he asked as if I was stupid.

"You will leave me?" only words that came out in my mouth.

He looked at me as if he couldn't believe what I was asking to him.

"Really? You're asking me if I'm going to leave you? Why don't I grab that opportunity, we're rich, yes, but I won't waste the opportunity to be an exchange student in another country."

And that's when my tears finally flowed. I didn't make him choose. I'm just hurt because I found out from someone else that he's leaving, he should be the one to tell me because he's my boyfriend. And isn't he hurt that he's going to leave me?

"I'm your girlfriend, I should be the first to know that you're leaving." I'm so hurt by our situation, I don't understand him.

"That's it, you said you're my girlfriend but you can't support me. Besides, what would be different if I told you that I'm leaving, Dean will also announce it. Also, stop acting like that."

"Acting like what? Huh? Why are you like that huh? Don't you even think that you're going to leave me? Aren't you sad that you're leaving? Huh? Why are you like that? You're like an ice, you're so cold when it comes to me and to our relationship." I feel so much pain, I teared up while looking at him.

He looked at me as if he was disgusted with me.

"Can you please not make a scene here, you should be ashamed of what you are doing."

This is too much I can't take it anymore, I'll talk to him next time. I shook my head while looking at him. I was very disappointed with what he was telling me.

"Let's talk some other day."

"No, we're going to end this now. I'm going to break up with you now. I'm sorry but our relationship didn't work for long. Let's just accept that we're not meant for each other."

When he said that, I was completely depressed, he was breaking up with me, was he going to break off our relationship?

Does he really not love me? Why isn't he crying? Doesn't he think we've been in a relationship for over a year?

My tears continued to flow, when he left me in front of their building.

I was not with myself when I went home to our house. Today is too much.

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