Insane 《》Hyunlix (1)

Stories to Tell

           ★ Felix's Pov★

I couldn't just watch him cry and sit there doing nothing. Past or not, those feelings are still there and they are larger than the ocean and deadlier. The urge to comfort him is taking over and I can't fully hold it back.

He looks up at me possibly confusion or something clicked in his mind from our memories of each other. I never knew that his mother really didn't like me although it would explain why she was hardly spoke to me.

He continues even though it pains him to. "So I went to check up on him but as I got closer the blood seeped to near my shoes. I just ended up kicked down the door. I held him until the ambulance came to get him. I tried so fucking hard to keep him with me, trying anything just to keep him from fading. I could have tried calling him after the break up but then I'm afraid he would have blocked it or something."

What? But it wasn't me who did that. So then who was it? I never worked with anything to do with stars. I only worked at this hospital. He surely couldn't mistaken me for someone else unless... I need to ask Hyunjin something first. "Where did he work at?"

"A planetarium. It held many memories for the both of us"

Oh you got to be freaking kidding me. Son of bitch, literally, he is so going to be dead by the time I get off this shift. By today if he the one who pulled this bullshit, my brother will sure be hearing and feeling something. Then after that, I'm going to make sure the truth comes out but first I got to make sure in a non suspicious way.

"So tell me if you don't mind me asking, what did he look like?" Hyunjin sighs as he looks up at the ceiling with the back of his head up against the wall.

"He had the darkest brown eyes like amber but darker. He had the brightest smile that could light up the room if he was around. Always the cheery one, but of course not that day which should have been a clue for me that something was wrong with him. His hair was dyed blonde that day, I don't know when he started doing that as when we dated in high school, he always had his natural brown hair exactly like yours except lighter"

Yeah he remembered alright, except I don't lighten it a little bit like I normally do.

Hyunjin covers his mouth as he starts to sobs again. This is pure torture to put him through this. But the way he described it sounds like my brother. That motherfucker, if I find out that's the case so help me I will punch him.

"I can still remember his dying words to me, even as blood was all over my clothes and face but I didn't care. He told me ' I will always love you Hyunjin. I was just more betrayed that you would do that kind of thing. I will never hate you because I love you too much.'" 

Yup, dramatic all the way like my brother too. If it were me I would have told him 'I'm sorry that you will remember me like this. I will always have you in my heart, because you are the only one for me. Your my forever' but of course, even depressed I wouldn't do that as I would rather talk it out despite my stubborn ways than to do that.

Welp, Yeosung will be a dead ass by the time I get his little secrets from him. He sobs harder as he is struggling to breathe. He's looking for comfort any in way he can but wouldn't it be against doctor rules?

I don't care at this point, this hospital can kiss my ass.

           ~☆Hyunjin's Pov☆~

He opens his arms to allow me to hug him. Yongbok would have done the same thing. It might be weakness showing or the fact of even if for a moment I can pretend that he is my Felix then it would be so comforting.

I hug him tightly as I wrap my arms around this doctor's tiny waist. This doctor smells like citrus with warm hints, like what Felix used to wear. His breathing went from rapid to slow and calm. He cups the back of my head and says "I'm sorry for all the pain you have gone through"

Those words went through like a sword through my chest but it made my heart pound but for all the wrong reasons. I haven't slept since I got here and it just feels as if Felix is still here. Even just for a moment, it hit me so hard making my tears and all the heart ache just disappear even if it was for a short moment.

I want to ask him to stay and just let me sleep with my head on his lap but that's just too much emotional bearings to have to ask a doctor.

I don't know how long we stayed like this just embracing each other as I would feel his other hand move up to his eyes often. Are they irritated or something?

He pulls away from the long hug as he picks up his clipboard standing up. "Well I will put these into my notes. For now I am going to tell them to hold medicine until I can figure out all of your dianosis. I will be back here tomorrow morning just to check on you and all. Sleep well and please try your best to take care" he says in a quick manner as he says it kinda rushed.

Why was he so rushed for? Maybe he had a couple more patients or something. Not like it's any of my business though.

His accent though was strange almost Australian but muffled more than before. Like as if he was purposely hiding his accent. Why is that? He had a clear Korean accent before from Seoul or Busan maybe?

This doctor has a lot of secrets that will catch up with him with a bit of time. Do I wish to know what they are? No, because I can't bring Yongbok back and there's nothing I can do anymore.

It felt good to be hugged like that but will anyone replace Felix? No, never in this universe.

Doctor Seo didn't treat me that bad but was totally guarded and one worded replies unlike this doctor who seems to want to help me. What will this drag me into?