Insane 《》Hyunlix (1)

Admittance

★Felix's Pov★

A doctor named Seo Changbin comes up to me handing me a case file. "No use,I don't know how to help this poor fellow. Off his rocker completely. Maybe you can help him if you take a swing at it. I'll treat you to a drink later" He sighs and walks away as he rubs his forehead.

Great just leave me with another patient as if I'm not already working on a killer, let alone anything else. I open up the tan colored file. Hwang. Oh no that better not be who I think it is. If it is,how did Hyunjin get in here? Last time I saw him was in senior year at that diner. God so many bad mistakes that I made but I never got up the guts to say anything to him.

Hyunjin.. yup it's him alright. Age 23 male, in here after a mental break after his long term lover dying from suicide? He had another lover since then?

I walk into room 721. It has meaning to it but as long as Hyunjin doesn't notice me then it's fine for now. After all I am the one who placed him in this room. Everything should come out within good time as long as he is somewhat talkative towards me which I have no clue if he will.

I slip on a mask before going fully in. I hope my natural hair color and the mask will throw him off. Remember strictly business, nothing personal.

Ha who am I kidding? That will be difficult when it comes to him. It is no big deal until I see Hyunjin crying as he has his knees balled up to his chest mumbling to himself. Shit Changbin wasn't kidding when he said this boy is a mess.

His black hair was all messy which made me want to pick up the pieces so badly. But not now. "Hello, I am doctor Lee Y, from here on, I will become your doctor. Feel free to ask any questions." I try my hardest to mask my Australian accent as it would give me away immediately. He wouldn't think anything of a Busan accent right?

The tears begins to fall more rapidly as he stands up. His eyes are scanning my body slowly, surely he doesn't recognize me right? I look at my sleeves just to make sure that nothing of my arms are showing just in case.

I back away from his bed a little bit as I try to keep a little distance between us. Shit, he's thinking about something but his eyes are blank so maybe a okay sign for me but not on his side. Whatever happened that made him snap must have spooked him badly, not much can make him like this. He is strong mentally or at least the way that I knew him.

He gets up from his bed as he is wearing a blue striped top and bottoms just like any patient would recieve. He walks closer to me as it took all I could not to step back even farther but that would show signs of no trust or being scared.

He leans against the wall as he stops giving a bit of distance as he keeps looking at me up and down before sinking down to the floor.

I kneel down next to him as he cries. He finally says something to me "I'm sorry, you just remind so much of my ex." Those are the first words he says to me and it sank my heart like a anchor.

I sit down next to him as I keep some distance. "Can you say his name or will that be too painful for you to handle?" I ask him as I'm trying to see his limits while he's in a talkative move.

At first he didn't speak as he would just cry. It took a hour just to him to stop crying so he could speak.

"Lee Yongbok Felix" Wait what? No there is no way in hell. Unless, No, Yeosung is not in this. What interest would it be of my twin anyways?

"Can you tell me all that happened?" I'm going to need the full story on this one.

~☆Hyunjin's Pov ☆~

Welp this is only the second time I have put myself through hell out loud with the 1,000th time replaying it in my head.  "Where do you want me to start from the start or from the point where he died?"

Why should I be telling him anything? Is there a point to it? Felix is dead, this is grievance not insanity. I just haven't felt like discussing this for no reason to someone who thinks I am.

Everyone here treats me as if I have gone off my rocker but they never gave me time to react to anything really. But my mother went by anything Bang Chan says since I'm sure she would have rather me marry him than Felix.

I attempted once and then she called Chan who took me up to Pine Hills Hospital. My mom put me here after it was decided after Psychological test from the same doctor who told us the bad news. He felt it was best so he committed me here, more like I'm about to put some dollars in my pocket.

Which is exactly why I'm not saying a damn thing to no one. It's not going to change the fact that he died or the fact that I just needed healing. You know heaven forbid anyone gives me that, all the hospital is concerned about is money. And as for my mom and Chan, they are making sure they don't have to watch me.

The doctor looks over to the side thinking then looks back at me "How about a background then the death? I just want the be filled in since I technically was transferred to you today." I couldn't see the lie written on his face like that Dr.Seo was.

He is technically the first person I have truly talked to since I arrived here. Something about him reminds me of Felix. Maybe it's because of his warm aura.

"So I was dating a boy named Lee Yongbok Felix, we dated up until senior year of high school. But I fucked it all up. See I had this good for nothing friend that couldn't resist but to stirr up drama. Well that's what he did alright, he caused our break up" Anger still boils up in me as I tell this.

He moves to sit in front of me but still gives distance between us even though there was a chair by the door. But hey I'm crazy one here so who am I to judge?

"So 5 years after the breakup, I decided to visit him again because I missed him and still love him with all my heart" That sentence hit me like a big ton of rocks as my eyes watered again as this is the first time I admitted it to anyone.

"I was planning on asking him if he was safe or even just staying in the back of the crowd. Even though I wasn't talking to him or anything, I would at least be in the same room with him and see his gorgeous face again."

Stray tears run down my cheeks as I can still remember those freckles on his cheeks or the way he smiled every morning when he saw me. It cuts me like a knife but I still continue anyways.

"That day he started crying after he said big dipper."

"Hold up, does that have a meaning?" He must have read my body language or is just trying to get a general understanding from a psychological view.

I nod "It was the first constellation I pointed out to him that night. I told him that night 'You are prettier than the stars and sky combined. You are hotter than the sun Felix.' "

Tears began to run down my cheeks faster as it used to be something only him and I knew but I guess now he's 6 feet under where he is apart of the clouds. If only I could see out I would look for the brightest star in the sky because that would be him.

Some emotion flashes across the doctor's face as he very quickly scratches by his eye. That's odd but I will continue as this is what he wants to hear.

"It was the first night we had sex, our parents didn't totally approve of us. His father didn't, that's for sure and my mother always wanted me to marry a doctor or a rich guy. But the truth was, I wasn't going to settle for anyone but him. And still won't. Anyways back to the day he died."

I wipe the tears away looking away from this doctors dark brown eyes that reminded me too much like Yongbok's. This doctor will cause me nothing but pain.

"He stepped away to the bathroom and of course I thought to give him space but he was gone for too long. I should have went in there sooner before went to him. Maybe he still would have been alive." I stop again just because of the fact of I can't do it. It pains me too bad.

The doctor gets up and sits down next to me as he whispers "Pull yourself together. You did nothing wrong." That tone, I've heard it before. No it can't be...