Insane 《》Hyunlix (1)

Blast Back To The Past

                ~☆Hyunjin's Pov☆~
I would say things were easy growing up but it wasn't all the way. I would tell people that my mom is a stay at home mother, which she is. That part isn't a lie, but the whole my father has his own business is a full on lie.

Yongbok knows that too, however he doesn't know about his actions and the fact my parents are divorced but living together still. It all kinda started when I was 7 I think.

Yongbok also doesn't know about how rough my friend group is. I don't intend him to find out either unless he asks. Thankfully he has not.

                 Hyunjin; 7 years old (past)  (current)

My father walks into the living room where a drama that mother watches is on TV. My eyes are on the TV as well as I try to be interested in what other adults are interested in. He comes in with a bottle of wine slowly drinking on the almost empty bottle.

He smashes it on the floor when he is finished. "Clean it up and I dare for you to say a damn word about it" Why the hell does she have to be your damn maid?  You did it so pick it up yourself I run to the backyard as I cover my ears hear them screaming at each other.

This was happening here recently as sometimes I would hear her shout about him being a dog and cheater. But the truth is I'm too young to understand that all. I can't fix their problems. It never did solve itself. As the older I got, the worse it got. But I began to tune things out and run with a more wild group.

           Hyunjin;Age 14
I begin to walk the streets, I can't stand to be inside that house. It's nothing but nonsense and screaming. Dad has moved on from mom mentally but he doesn't have money right now for divorce.

I would almost give him the money if it gave peace and I wish things would get better and all but I know that's a dream. Something non achievable. My friend Jaeyun comes up behind me with a knife at my throat.

My insticts kick in as I pull the knife out of his hand despite my hand bleeding. I have many scars from doing that but that doesn't matter to me anyways.

I quickly push the 'attacker' to the nearest wall where I pin him by the throat with my arm. "Do that again and I swear I won't go light on you" I pull away as I walk towards our run down gragr that we woukd call our dorms or living quarters

We used to go there every day and sometimes night and just fight each other and causally talk. Those days are far over after that gang dispersed. Junwon got heavily into dr*gs which caused his death. That's what shook that group to its core.

  We have Raven who is mostly quiet but man, you won't want to make him mad. He is like a ragin bull when mad.

Junwon is our leader, the toughest of us all and the one that brought us all here. The glue of the group.

Raven ended up leaving the group completely, only keeping in touch with me after he and Junwon had a falling out. I never did find out what that fight was about because I never asked and didn't care because I'm not the person that will take sides.

Then there is Wooyun, you never know if he is really on your side or not. When we are doing stuff such as graffiti or breaking into old abandoned places, he is always waiting in the car to drive away. Sometimes he would stay there but other times if the cops were too close, no way in hell does he stay.

All of us were friends up til senior year of  highschool where no one wanted to tell me the truth on why they truly brought Felix there. I never wanted Felix to even to be around the bad influence but I didn't want him to think I was hiding something either. I just needed time.

Then the final guy Jaeyun, he is by my side all the time. But he loves to be loud and also loves to see drama. He won't ever try to stop it but more of the lines of instigate it more. He loves a good fight more than anything.

You might be thinking, where did I fit in this sort of gang out of the group? I was the person who slipped through tight spaces or unlocked things. Oh yeah and doing half of the fighting and running.

They left me behind a little bit too often but I trained myself to become faster. A reason why I joined track,but I was fast before hand which is how I got on the team. I stopped doing gang activities about Sophomore year. I pretty much any dirty work that they didn't want to do themselves.

                Hyunjin:age 18 after the breakup

I can't believe my eyes,something that I would never dreamed or wish for it to happen,happened. Thanks to Jaeyun, my relationship with Felix is over. If only he could have kept his damn mouth shut, I would be holding Yongbok's hand.

I know that the events that happened shouldn't have happened but sometimes I just have to vent some anger out.

"You and me outside behind this building now." I snarl at him. I'm tired of his bullshit.

"What happened to talking it out and leaving this shit behind? You were strong by remaining friends with us and not apart of the gang. And now you want to act like this?"

"Would you shut the fuck up? Because all your playing is bullshit. Your just jealous because you can't keep a girlfriend over a couple months let alone almost 4 years. Jackass."

Raven laughs which was a strange thing to hear. "He's got a point."  I walk out of that diner with my blood boiling. He comes up behind me which makes me pull him by the shoulder and sit on him so he couldnt move.

I begin to punch him over and over as blood gushes out but he flips my legs over as he pins me down banging my head on the concrete. He kisses me but I knee him in the crotch the moment his lips touched mine. Felix knows nothing of this and as far as he knows, I took a ride home.

"It should have been me making you happy and taken on date. That boy is tainting you and it's only a matter of time before your darkness ruins him. Do you honestly think he could handle your past? You would be better off with me and not him"

"But see that's what's wrong with your flawed thinking. If I wanted you,  I would have done that.  But guess what I don't.  Felix won't know a damn thing because darkness is not good for him. I love that boy and that will never change. "

And with that,I walked away from them all together except for Raven who was like me,there for the thrill. But I didn't seek thrill since I met Yongbok.