Covered in invisible scars (suicidal Bakugo)

Cuts and Cuts, Pills and Pills

Bakugo's POV:

I couldn't deal with it. I had started to sing a song that I love with all my heart and relate to on a very personal level. When I realised what I had started singing my heart dropped in my chest. My mind started to fill with overwhelming thought.

Me (whispering): I- what have I done?

Before anybody could say anything to me I ran upstairs as fast as I could. I fumbled with the key to unlock my dorm room. The moment it was unlocked I ran in forgetting to lock the door behind me.

How?

How could I possibly be this stupid?

See you damn moron.

Now do you believe us?

Now do you believe that you're worthless?

Now do you believe what a stupid fool you are?

Now do you believe that you should just kill yourself?

They were right. At this point I don't know why I hadn't just tried. I mean, they've been telling me to do this for years. How could I NOT do this by now?

I went into the bathroom and grabbed two things. One, my pocket knife. Two, a bottle of pills. To increase my risk of dying I wanted to have a bit of blood loss added to this.

With that I took the knife and undid the bandages that Kiri had put on me the other day. With that I cut around thirty cuts, about eighteen shallow ones and twelve deeper cuts.

Cut

That's for being useless.

Cut

That's for expressing myself.

Cut

That's for being such a jerk to everybody.

Cut

That's for not having done any of this shit before.

Cut

That's for promising Kiri something that you knew you couldn't keep.

Whenever I put thought and passion into the cuts it always made them much worse.

Perfect.

With the amount of blood that's leaking out of my system I should have a better chance of not surviving this.

I went back over to the bottle of pills that I had taken out. They were just headache pills so most people wouldn't care if a person had them. And although they are just for normal usage and you can buy them without a doctor's prescription, they were really powerful. One time I had such a bad headache that I took triple the amount that I should've taken. That left me paralyzed from around forty-five minutes to an hour.

Yeah.

These should do the trick.

Especially with the current bloodloss.

I grabbed a cup of water and started taking them.

One Pill.

Two Pill.

Three Pill.

Four Pill.

Five Pill.

Six Pill.

Seven Pill.

Eight Pill.

Nine Pill.

This kept on going until I had twenty-four of these mini-bastards. Four times more than last time.

The effect was almost immediate. A sudden rush of drowsiness and dizziness fell over me. I grabbed onto the towel bar for stability. I don't know who or what it was but I heard someone saying something but it sounded almost as though it were miles away. A few seconds afterwards I lost all will to stand up.

Well Kiri, I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise to you.

Please, just go and find someone better.