wait stop this is all wrong ⚠️🔵 S.J E.O F.P

1.3K 13 1
                                    

you are a singer as well as an actress in marvel, scarlett lizzie and florence come to watch your show.
///////////////////////////////////////////////////
your first song

your second song

i'm half way through my third song

but i got awful news before my show, half way through the song i stand up and stop the show

you "i'm sorry i can't do this, this is all wrong. she should be here! i can't stand here and sing about power and mental health when i got the worst news before my show tonight, a fan i had become very close with killed herself last night i found out today. i've been in that position, i've been in that place where there ain't a way out, i've lay on the bathroom floor bleeding, laying in a hospital bed unable to look at the faces or worry around the room. so please please please put the blade down, put the pills down. don't take your own life, your worth so much more than what you think, each and everyone of you is valuable to me. i love each and everyone of you. my messages are open, message me, your friends family anyone just don't hurt yourself. don't take your own life don't let that voice in your head win. your strong and beautiful."
i look around the room and see signs that say i stand with y/n and i stand with lays (the girl who killled herself)
i look around the room and tear up.
you "i love you layla. my angel"
after my shows over i go backstage and take a moment to myself trying to cope with the hurt and grief i was feeling but it all got too much and i ended up sobbing.
i didn't hear the girl come in so i jumped when i was pulled into lizzies lap, i straddled her and hid my face in her neck while flo put her hand up my top and tickled my bare back and scar took my hair down and brushed it for me, she then took off my makeup and kissed my forehead.
lizzie "your okay sweet girl. we are here"
flo "we love you so much"
you "it could've been me who was dead, it was very close to me being dead, defeated by my own head."
scar "we know honey, but you have just helped so many people out there, you have no idea"
scar grabs me some new non sweaty clothes and i change then take my place back in lizzies lap.
i had short shorts on and a baggy top.
flo kisses all of the self harm scars on my thighs, neck and arms. lizzie stroked the ones in my tummy while scar stroked my hair and head.
you "can you pass my phone?"
i went live to show everyone my vulnerability, what the reality of suicide is.
my fans talked to me while i was still cuddled into lizzie crying.

over the next few months i was greeted by fans with healed scars and thankful families how still have their kids because of what i said that night.

A/N
i'm now over a year clean from self harm, i didn't believe there was a way out or that i would make it to 16 and when i did i didn't believe i would make it to 18. im now 19 and still here, clean from self harm and doing much better, so if i can do you all of you can to.
if you ever need someone to talk to my messages are open. don't suffer in silence.

One-Shots Marvel women/cast Where stories live. Discover now