You and I

chapter 4

Angee Pov

Forda walkout ako don hehe nakakasakit na kase si Ward like alam niyo yung feeling na she want me to unlove her in a romantically way but she's giving me a lot of mixed signals na halos araw araw nagbabago plus sobrang caring niya sakin na as in hinde lang bilang bestfriend parang jowa thing na then bigla nalang siya magsasabi sakin na wala talagang chance. sana sinapak niya nalang ako di ba?

So yon na nga 3 weeks ago, Ward and I talked about my feelings and she said it's ok daw pero she wanted me to inform that there's no chance between me and her because she's into guy and she's straight so wala akong palag don and I respect that. Nagsabi naman ako sa kanya na susubukan ko pero still bestfriend kami at never magbabago yon.

FF.

Nakauwi na ako sa bahay and sabado bukas so meaning walang pasok and it's time to party party charot maglilinis ako ng bahay kase uuwi ang bestfriend kong si Kate (authors imaginary name), I'm so excited to see her since almost 7 years ko din siyang di nakita and I miss her clingy side na pati pagtulog magkatabi kami and Isa pa para kaming kambal na di mapag hiwalay pero she's in a relationship kaya wag kayong maissue sapakin ko kayo e!.

I was in the middle of my nap when suddenly I felt a hand on my tummy dahilan para magising ako, tiningnan ko ito and it's Ward. I was shock Kase nilock ko naman Yung door so paano to nakapasok?

"Hey, did I wake you up?" mahinhin niyang saad but I'm tampo parin so I didn't replied on her question, I just closed my eyes.

"alam kong gising ka pa, I'm sorry" dagdag pa niya ramdam ko sa tono ng boses niya yung lungkot.

"Why are you here?" I asked her.

"I want to talk to you" she said.

"Ok then let's talk" inayos ko Ang aking upo at hinarap si Ward.

what do you want to talk about?" I asked dahil nalilito narin ako. She's just looking at me na parang malungkot, wow ha ako Yung nasasaktan tapos siya yung malungkot?

"Angee, I'm sorry" panimula niya.

"Ward do you still love him?, Siya parin ba?" prangka kong tanong. I just want to know the truth para alam ko kung saan ako lulugar as her lover and as her clingy bestfriend.

"I-I also don't know Angee. Akala ko nakamove on na ako pero knowing na Hinde naman talaga siya ng cheat di ko alam pero nagiguilty ako for not giving him a chance to explain his side and I felt sad about it" sagot naman niya na ikinalungkot ko, para akong sinaksak ng katotohanan na wala talaga chance na maging sakin siya like alam niyo yon,.mashaket haha.

"Confirm" bulong ko pero narinig niya.

"ano yon?" Tanong niya.

"Sabi ko confirm, you still love him, siya parin, you're still into him" malungkot kong saad, bat ba kase ang hirap mong hinde mahalin Reinalyn?

"Sorry Angee, sorry that I can't love you the way you love me but I swear Angee I love you so much, I really do and I'm sorry you have to go through this, you deserve to be love romantically and sorry that its not me" she said, I don't know what to feel but I'm stopping my tears from falling in my eyes dala narin siguro ng lungkot at sakit.

"You don't have to say sorry Ward, choice ko na mahalin ka kahit at the first place alam kong walang chance kase straight ka kaya kung nasasaktan man ako kasalanan ko yon, ok?." I said. Nung pinili ko siyang mahalin parang pinili ko narin masaktan kase naman alam ko naman na walang chance pero still pinili ko siya. So it's not her fault. Di ba?