Koi No Yokan ___ Inevitable Love

38. A breath of fresh air

Dedicated to ahmadinajma  kpopkdrama149 MS_6710

Trigger Warning

contains mentions of physical violence (Child Abuse) and anxiety

Ji ah's POV:

I stood in the shower, warm water running down my body as I desperately wished for it to sweep away all the scars, to take them down the drain. But they never go away, It's been 8 years now, some of the scars got fainted with time, some of them even vanished but some are still here to mock me. 

Even with all this water being poured over me I can still feel my eyes welling up, can still tell when the tears leak out of them and cascade down my face as I move my hands over the lashes I have on my thighs. These are partly the reason why I never wear skirts without stockings. Or why I totally stopped wearing dresses until oversized hoodies and baggy clothes became my style.

Since that moment in the restaurant, I can't help but think back on that unfortunate time when he hit me for the very first time.

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"Ready or not I'm coming for you" I yelled at Mr.s Arthur our maid and my personal caretaker. We were playing with water balloons in the backyard. I threw one at her but she dodged it once again. "You can't take me down" she teased me playfully and I decided that I won't lose this time. Picking out another balloon, I carefully aimed it at her. It was the largest of them all, "If I manage to get her this I'll win for sure" I thought. 

Mr.s Arthur was busy making funny faces at me when I decided to strike. I threw the balloon at her with all my might and started my happy dancing right away as I heard it burst. "What the hell!!" a masculine voice grumbled and I turned to find Dad! His shirt was all soaked up, sticking to his chest, trying to shake the water off of his cell phone. I was so focused on Mr.s Arthur that I didn't even notice him behind her. Mr.s Arthur now stood a few steps away from him, staring at him with sheer horror. I hope she doesn't lose her job because of this but it wasn't her fault and Dad will never do such a thing. 

He's been a part of this family for two weeks now and I've never seen him misbehaving with any of the housekeeping staff. "Take the rest of your day off Mr.s Arthur!" He seethed, that expression on his face, I've never seen him so angry before. "I'm sorry Sir! I'll..." But he cut her in mid-sentence "If you want to stay employed just do as I say" He sneered, glaring daggers at her, and Mr.s Arthur had no option but to oblige. 

As soon as she disappeared from the picture, he looked at me, his expression didn't soften or changed, still, with that same raging face he beckoned me towards him "Come here Janet!" he said. I would have run up to him but at that moment I wanted to run and hide, I had a bad feeling about this. Gulping down the fear I took slow steps towards him stopping at a foot away from where he stood. "Come closer Janet," he said in a low voice, a low voice that oozed danger. I stayed rooted at my stop, my gut was telling me to take off, and run away but my body seemed paralyzed under his fiery glare.

"Do you understand English? I said come over!" He shouted and a shiver ran down my spine, he was mad, so I walked up to him with tears running down my cheeks. "You're a real trouble maker aren't you?" he whispered, running his hand over my head, running them through my hair, and then in a split second, he yanked at them. He pulled my hair down with so much force that it tucked my chin up and my eyes met his as tears leaked out uncontrollably  "Let me teach you a lesson your Mom never did!" saying that he let go of my hair and pulled me by my arm.