Koi No Yokan ___ Inevitable Love

39. Reality Check

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Play along to the song for a better reading experience "Naked by James Arthur"

Han seojun's POV:

Hey! Get out!

I've got nothing left to give

and you give me nothing now

read my mouth

if you ever want me back

then your walls need breaking down

I was surrounded by the sound of my guitar with her words booming at the back of my head as I continued to sing.

I wanted to put my head into something so that I'd stop thinking about her, but I didn't know what? What did I have but music? Music is the only way I can interpret my emotions and communicate with myself. So that's what I jumped into, just to be floated back to her.

And I ended up singing my heart out about how she made me feel after all that. Ji ah made me realize the bitter truth, she made me question my feelings for her!
"Do you truly know me to claim that you love me? or have you fallen in love with an idea of me?"

Cuz here I am, I'm giving all I can

But all you ever do is mess it up

yeah I'm right here

I'm trying to make it clear

that getting half of you just ain't enough

I didn't know what to do, I wanted to give her everything. Heck! I gave her everything but how much more was needed?
"Real love happens when all the perfections are stripped off of them and they stand with all their flaws laid out before your eyes"

I'm not gonna wait until you're done

pretending you don't need anyone

I'm standing here naked...

I'm standing here naked...

She was right! I stood there with all my flaws on display, practically naked waiting for her to do the same, waiting for her to lay it out for me but she didn't. She chose herself over us and I couldn't even call her out for that.

I can't blame her or ask her why because of the facts she put forward, I didn't have anything to deny them, nothing to argue with. She showed me a reality that I didn't even know existed.

My feelings for her... My love for her... Is it true love?? Or am I just...

So I lay there... on my bed, playing at the strings of my heart when I sensed a presence at my door, I could see a shadow lurking from the little gap underneath the door.

It must be Go woon-ah! This girl never listens, I have told her so many times just to leave me as I am, to not bother but she's so persistent.