My Birthday.. tsukasa angst

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TW: this chapter contains blood and cursing!! you've been warned

" tsu tsu are you ok?"

" huh? what do you mean?"

" I mean are you ok? you aren't yourself today?"

"I mean yeah why wouldn't I be?" I gave off a kinda annoyed tone...

" tsukasa-kun you don't have to lie to me you know?"

" I know but i'm fine ok?"

" TSUKASA-KUN BE SERIOUS WITH ME ARE YOU OK?!" the sound echoed. I'm not ok rui. But I can't tell you that.

" YES RUI-KUN IM FINE! I JUST HAVE A HEADACHE?! CAN I NOT HAVE ONE?"

" YOU CAN IM JUST SAYING-"

" OK GOOD THEN SHUT UP!"

did I really just say that? shut up? when was the last time I even said that?

" YOU DONT TELL ME WHAT TO DO!    tsukasa-kun?"

my face floods with tears. I hate when I remember that moment

- Flashback - 10 Years Ago
why is mama mad at me? what did I do? maybe she saw the vase! oh no... I really hope she didn't notice it..
" TSUKASA! WHY DID  YOU  TAKE  YOUR SISTER OUT OF THE HOSPITAL WITHOUT THERE PERMISSION?!" oh no she figured out... shoot i can't hide it either way.
" mom im sorry.. she really wanted to see outside she hasn't been out there in so long!"
" THATS NOT A FUCKING EXCUSE! your a disgrace of a child." is that what she thinks of me? a disgrace. that's it? nothing more? and saki's her perfect angel? it's not fair... she just wanted to see the outside nothing more.
" SHE CAN DO WHAT SHE WANTS ISNT THAT WHAT YOU WANT FOR YOUR ANGEL?!"
" TSUKASA TENMA THAT IS ENOUGH IM SICK OF YOUR STUPID VOICE CAN YOU HONESTLY SHUT UP FOR ONCE?!"
" NO I WONT UNTIL YOU TELL ME WHY IM NOT AS IMPORTANT AS SAKI! JUST BECAUSE SHE'S IN THE HOSPITAL DOSENT MEAN YOU CAN JUST NEGLECT ME!" she grabs a plate and gives me a intimidating look... what will mom do? she brings it up like a baseball bat and swings it. right at my face. a shard of glass gets stuck in my cheek. my mother pushes it in farther. I start crying and she throws another plate at my face. my face starts to bleed and my cheek is covered in blood. I go to wipe it and she tells me to shut up.
" IF YOU WANTS WHAT'S BEST FOR HER THEN GO AHEAD BECOME A AMAZING STAR FOR HER SO SHE CAN ALWAYS LOOK UP TO YOUR BROTHER BECAUSE IM DONE HERE I HATE YOU SO MUCH I WISH YOU WERE NEVER BORN!"
" GO ON A BRIDGE!"
" YOU DONT TELL ME WHAT TO DO! IF YOU DONT MAKE IT ILL KNOW AND ILL COME BACK AND MAKE SURE SAKI IS SAFE AND YOUR GONE! you have until your 20"
" ATLEAST ILL BE A BETTER INFLUENCE DRUNK BITCH!"
" YOU CAN NOT SAY THOSE WORDS!"
" YOU CANT TELL ME WHAT TO DO IF YOU WONT EVEN BE HERE! SO GO ALREADY!"
" FUCK YOU SON FUCK YOU"
" RIGHT BACK AT YOU MOM"

- end of flashback -

" TSUKASA?!"

"im gonna go.." rui stops me and looks at my eyes. he looks so scared. and worried.

" look tsu tsu im really sorry... you were just so zoned out half of practice that I was really concerned. I just wanted to help ok? I'm sorry if I scared you." he sounded so gentle... I crumble I hug him and start sobbing uncontrollably. I tell him everything every last word. he listens not interrupting once.
" so i'm sorry if i was out of it i was just scared if I would actually do It and I didn't know what I would do! so I was so scared rui..."
" shhhh~ its ok I promise. would you like to come to my place to calm down? It's ok don't worry" i nod my head and we head to his house holding his hand tight. we arrive at his house and we go to his room.