memories-dnf

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they were sitting on dreams couch, awkward silence surrounding them. no one knew what to say or to start this conversation. it was a heavy topic. dream repeatedly opened his mouth trying to find a way to explain himself but he just couldn't find the right words. he knew he fucked up bad this time. how could he be so stupid to take drugs anyway? he should've just got drunk. dream finally decided to break the silence with a joke hoping it would break the tense and awkward situation right now. "at least i didn't relapse, haha right?" yeah his plan didn't work. george just sighed and looked even more pissed now. great job. "look dream i know you like to joke about serious situation but this is definitely not the right time right now." george then said. dream just nodded along hoping george would continue talking because he surely still didn't knew what to say. george picked up on it and continued talking then. "okay so you still have the baggie right? can i see it" slowly dream pulled out the little bag from his pocket and hesitatingly gave it to george. sure he was the one who was sniffing that shit yesterday but that didn't mean george didn't have history with drugs and could still always relapse.

george opened it and put a little bit on the table analysing it like it was normal to just know what kind of drug it is by just looking at it. "looks like ketamine or crystal- both? no these are wannabe drugs. bro thats some fucked up shit, where did you even get that?" he was now looking at dream again. it felt surreal to dream that george knew all that by just looking at that, he would've thought its just coke- he didn't feel the need to lie about it though like what could go wrong right? "uhm some dude who worked at this one bar down the street gave it to me." he made a short pause before adding one last detail. "for free-" george sighed. "okay dream thats literally the dumbest thing you could do- anyway whole reason why we're even talking about it, why did you do it?" the brunette asked after not even really commenting something to the fact dream took drugs from a complete stranger. "i wanted to forget." the words slipped out if his mouth before even realizing it. he didn't want to sound so harsh or hurt george with these words in any way but now it was to late anyway. "okay i get that, i think i know best how you felt, i'm an addict myself, just promise me you won't do it again okay? talk to people, talk to me, instead of thinking you can handle everything on your own." dream just nodded. he didn't knew what to say. george was right he should be able to talk to people, at least to george, but then again george didn't tell him everything too. "but you didn't really talk to me, so why should i?" dream didn't actually want to fight or anything, his words just came out wrong, to tired to really think about it, he just wanted to know why. "what are you talking about?" george seemed genuinely confused at dreams answer, as if he forgot the whole reason why dream took drugs. "ash." was all the blonde said. he felt tears pricking at the corners of his eyes again, he didn't want it to affect him that much but it did. "oh" the brunette said before taking a deep breath trying to find the right words to explain everything.

"look dream, i'm sorry i didn't tell you. i know it seems like i'm a horrible person, which i probably am, i dont even know why i sarted all this, it started as like casual hookup thingy i never planned for it to be more than that because, i know it's been a long time but i know i wont be able to have a relationship except for when if its with you. i-" three words layed on georges tongue wanting to come out but he couldn't say them. not now. not so soon again. "it's just like whenever i see you all these feelings are coming back no matter how long i thought i was over you."

dream was way to stunned to speak, he knew george wasn't good with his emotions so all this stuff right now was really out of the ordinary but at the same time dream was proud of him for being able to open up about his true feelings. even if it wasn't everything.

"i'm literally about to tell ash we can't see eachother anymore, he's gonna be here tomorrow and i'm gonna fix things." dream just nodded again. he didn't knew what else to do so he just hugged george. a little bit startled by the sudden action george took a second to hug dream back. "i'm also sorry george, i knew it was a bad idea to take whatever that kind of stuff was but i don't know, that guy said i will forget stuff and it was so tempting-" dream was quickly shushed by george whispering quiet reassurances that everything is alright, and that it's okay. george knew it wasn't gonna help to continually tell dream how dumb of a decision that was, he was beating himself up over it already. no beed to add more. so instead george did the think he wished someone did for him back then but he couldn't be mad about it. if you weren't addicted or ever took drugs you're not gonna understand it. dream wanted to kiss george really bad, tell him again how sorry he was but then again he thought it probably wasn't a good idea under these circumstances and just let george tell him everythings gonna be alright.
after some time they decided it would be best to just order something to eat and watch some movies. to just spend some quality time together. they both needed it. so they did that. the whole evening wasn't really spoken much and they just enjoyed being in eachothers presence.

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when dream woke up the next morning the first thing he noticed is that his back hurt like hell and that they apparently fell asleep on the couch while watching some movie. he carefully untangled himself from george and took a second to admire george. why did he always have to look so pretty? he really had pretty privilege. after some time he realized it might seem weird to just stare at a sleeping person for that long and then quickly made his way to the kitchen, ready to make some breakfast. he decided to just keep it simple and made some fried eggs with bacon. while he waited for the eggs to be ready he quickly put some cat food for patches in her bowl and filled up the other bowl with fresh water. he then got back to making breakfast. as soon as the eggs were ready he put them on two plates, one for george, one for him. he then started to put the bacon in the pan and waited again. as if on cue george walked right into the kitchen as dream was putting the bacon on the plates. "good morning" the blonde gave a quick smile and put both plates on the table, gesturing for george to sit down. "morning" he said still visibly tired. "slept well?" dream asked while enjoying his breakfast. he was a good cook he had to admit that. "my back hurts like hell- we're never gonna fall asleep on that couch again." the blonde chuckled slightly at this, he was glad things were back to normal or at least a little bit. "i think it's best if i go out during the main part you talk with ash i think, right? you're gonna talk in private anyway, feels weird to just sit in one room until you ready you know?" george hummed in approval, obviously not so happy he would be here alone. "yeah right, just be out for an hour or sum, i'm sure it won't take long." the brunette tried to smile but you could see, this wasn't easy on him, and he absolutely didn't want to do that talk. dream nodded and with that they were falling into casual talk again while both ate their breakfast.

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bit of a shorter chapter but next chapter theres a surprise about ash >:D
nothing bad though, dont worry