Lost In Your Tattoos || l.p.

twenty-five

👑Reagan👑

A bright light shone through the curtains of the cramped hotel room. The bar, Louis grabbing me; it seems so faded in my mind. Don't get me wrong, Louis is kind, but he has an unsettling fire in his eyes when he gets angry. Liam's emotions are better contained than Louis', one of the reasons why I love Liam. I get these butterflies in my stomach when I see Liam. His laugh, his touch, his morals, to me it's a Utopia on Earth. When you peel away his stolen childhood and the obstacles he's pushed through, he's just a normal boy who was always worried about other peoples' opinions. His anger is a facade, protecting him from any form of judgement or emotion people have towards him. Growing up as a child of God, I always promised myself that I would never marry a man that isn't invested in his faith. But God nor Jesus ever persecuted a man for not having faith in Him. Jesus beckoned the people who weren't societally considered "normal". Moses stuttered, Zaccheus was short, Gideon was insecure, Miriam gossiped. People have three sides to them. The first is a side they show when they are comfortable around someone. This side is always the most beautiful because it touches the base of a person's soul; of their character. The second side is the side we show when we are angry. This side tempts pain, insecurity, rage, and brutality. The last side is the side we show when we meet someone new. We are either abnormally quiet, or abnormally loud. This shows our lack of trust, not wanting to grant the other person a glimpse of yourself, too afraid of judgement, too afraid of quick friendship.
I have seen all sides of Liam, I have seen him take the form of Moses, Gideon, Miriam, Martha, Thomas, Sara, Noah, Jonah, and Peter. Faith may play a factor in my quest for love, but what happens when it's not my quest that finds love, but Liam's? I went searching for a man who was perfect in everything he did. A man who loved Christ, a man who shaved on time, and there was a part of me searching for someone who would make me a better person, who would make me perfect. Liam however, was searching for someone who would accept him. That was his only requirement. He found me because he knew that to be perfect, you didn't need the best of the best. You just needed to love without conviction.