After school I rushed to the bus.
I sat down next to some random kid, put my earphones in and just listened to music..
Met a girl at seventeen.
Thought she meant the world to me.
So I gave her everything.
She turned out to be a cheat.
Said she been thinking for a long time
and she found somebody new.
I've been thinking that this
whole time.
Girl, I never thought you'd stayyy.
But that's okay.
I hope he takes your filthy heart in,
And then throws you away someday.
I take out my earphones.
What if Chandler throws me away...
Yeah I know it's just a song but what if he just made me fall for him and then leaves me for Joyce.
I stare at the window until the bus stops at my stop.
I get off and start walking home.
My phone buzzes. I got a message.
From Chandler:
Babe ... why didn't you wait for me today :(
I hate him so fucking much right now.
To Chandler:
Couldn't find you ;-;
He replies instantly.
From Chandler:
Oh ...
He makes me feel bad for him I swear.
Why is he doing this to me?
To Chandler:
Maybe we can go see a movie tonight. ;)
From Chandler:
Sorry /.\ Joyce invited me to dinner with her family. Maybe tomorrow.
He blew me off for her. For joyce. The one that basically said she was going to steal him from me..
I ran home. I didn't cry. Wanted to but I didn't.
I opened the front door and slammed it.
" Don't slam my shit " My dad yells.
" Fuck you " I mumble.
" What was that ?" He asks like he didn't hear me.
" I said okay ! " I say with attitude.
He just ignores me. I run upstairs to my room and jump into my bed.
A nap would be so good right now.
Pretty soon .. I drifted to sleep.
******
I woke up sweating. Probably because I went to sleep in my hoodie with two blankets on top of me.
I look at the time. Only 5:29.
I grab my phone. I have 1 missed call and 1 message from Veronica. 1 message from Chandler. I open Chandlers first of course.
From Chandler:
Hey baby. I told Beth I had to go to dinner with u and ur fam. Her dumb self actually believed me. Anyways can't wait to see you tonight
What. The. Fuck. Did he really ?
Is this real..
" I can't believe this .." I say to myself as the tears roll down my face.
I start screaming and throw my phone at the wall.
It broke. There goes that ...
I honestly don't care though. I scream and cry with anger and sadness built up inside of me.
He lied. He doesn't love me.
He's a fuckboy.
Looks like he won't care about what I'm about to do then ..
I walk to my bathroom and lock the door.
I pick up my blade from the bathtub and lift up my sleeve.
One cut .. Two Cuts ... Three cuts ... Four.
The tears rush down my face and I watch the blood drip.
I'm such an idiot. Or like Chandler said I'm dumb..
Why would I think someone actually cared and loved me.
I wiped my eyes and ran water over my cuts to try and stop the bleeding.
It eventually stopped. I pulled my sleeve down and walked back into my room.
I laid on my bed and fell into a deep sleep.
