The Storm Inside Me.

4. Awake

Porchay narrowed his gaze, he wasn't sure he wanted to believe Kim. No. He refused to believe him.

"I told you, he caused trouble."

'' To whom ? " Even Porchay was surprised by his own detached voice.

Kimhan sighed, he stood up, walked towards Chay and untied the chain he had on his ankle, with a simple code.

"Porchay, you don't understand the situation. "

''You're not explaining anything to me. '' Chay shot back with a cold stare.

Porchay got up, he could finally walk in the room, under the attentive gaze of Kim, who went to position himself towards the gate.

"Porsche and Vegas didn't stop. They kept looking for answers, together and..."

"My brother will never cheat on P'Kinn." Chay cut him short.

"....That's not what I said." sighed Kim. "But they screwed up. Porchay, Porsche shot Pete, he almost died in an old warehouse. ''

It didn't make sense, Pete was Porsche's best friend...Why did he... No. Kimhan was lying, again, Kimhan was always lying.

'' You can refuse to believe me, but the warehouse exploded, no one knows if Vegas and Porsche had time to flee. Porchay, I'm sorry I really don't know if..."

'' Shut your mouth. ''

Porchay bit his lip and he fled across the room, his ankle hurting a little and his heart was beating so hard he had a terrible headache. Kim's worried look irritated him. Only three people had the power to hurt his big brother.

"Who gave the order? " asked the young boy curtly '' P'Kinn would never hurt my brother, there are only two people left capable of such a thing: Khun Korn and you. P'Kim. Have you done it ?"

Seeing that Kim refused to answer him, Chay glanced out the door, towards Kim's living room. He wanted to ran away and find out what happened, P'Kinn could tell him the truth and maybe Tankhun too.. But Kimhan stood in his way, although he was not tall, in truth Chay was now slightly taller than him, Porchay hesitated. Kimhan Theerapanyakul was a scary man.

''You will come out when I have ensured your protection. ''

Porchay took a step forward but Kim crossed his arms, one eyebrow raised, as if to warn Chay to stop all movement before it was too late.

"Porchay. I will do anything to protect you, and even if I have to face your childish tantrums, I will not give in. You are in danger and YOU will put yourself in danger for your brother. I won't let it happen, I am being clear ?.''

Nerves on edge, Porchay started walking in all directions, he was clearly not made to live confined in this space, he was not Tankhun who refused to go out.

Kim looked at the young man, he knew he was hurting Chay, but his protective instinct was stronger than him, he represented everything he hated at that moment.

"You really are a family.... A crazy family. I mean seriously'' Porchay raised his voice ''P'Kinn pestered my brother to work for him, your own father keeping my mother hiding in his house FOR YEARS. Your cousin .... has a strange relationship with P'Pete, and you, you rejected me only to come back weeks later and keep me locked up in your apartment?!! It's me, Am I going mad ? Tell me I'm dreaming? Tawan shot me and I died, right? Am I in hell ? "

Porchay was looking for explanations, he was going crazy here. He needed to think and to act, he was sure that Porsche was alive, they were brothers, that kind of thing, he just felt it : he knew it, without need for explanations. Porchay forwards back to Kim, who didn't move; he was still preventing the young man from opening the padlock.

"Please. Chay, try to calm down, you won't be fine otherwise."

'' Why ? '' Chay glared at Kim. '' You're planning to shoot me with your dear gun that you hide behind your back? "

Kimhan winced. He rolled his eyes before taking a step, causing Chay to back away. He gave him a crooked smile:

"If you know it, back off. "

"You won't hurt me..."

"You have no idea what I can do."

Porchay blinked several times and he backed up until he felt the bed against his knees.

"P'Kim...Please...Let me out. '' Chay's shaky voice worried Kim, but the singer had to stay firm.

" It's for your own good. This is not the time, yet. Soon."

"I'm not okay" Chay sobbed. "I'm worried about my brother, please, P'Kim..."

Kimhan frowned and he knelt in front of the young man, he pressed his forehead against Chay's and looked into the teary eyes of the youngest:

''I'd like to tell you everything... But it's not time yet. Porchay. You just ignore it..."

"What do I ignore, P'Kim? Can't you tell Nong Chay ? I am begging you... ''

Kim pursed his lips, he got up before starting to leave.

Porchay immediately stood up and grabbed Kim's waist, he hugged him tightly and buried his face in the back of his senior's neck.

"P'Kim, please don't go, I just want to know, let me know... P'Kim, I'll be a good boy I promise, let me go get my brother.. I want to see him....''

Porchay was crying, he felt Kim's hands delicately resting on his, a deafening sound suddenly disturbed Chay and Kimhan's voice was difficult to hear, but he understood a few words:

''C.......Close.....Open.....You..''

His headache grew worse from the sound and Porchay screamed in pain, collapsing against Kimhan's body.

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'' Relax. '' said a first voice.

"How do you want me to stay calm? '' said a second.

"It's alright, stop worrying. ''

'' But the fuck, do you realize what's going on? ''

"Heh stop picking on the wrong person. He didn't do anything wrong, we're all worried in this room, it's no use, it's not a competition. We're just waiting. Even my fish are calmer than all of you. '' said a third voice.

'' Yes. He will do it. He is strong. Maybe stupid, but strong. ''

'' Don't fucking talk about my little brother like this, it's your damn fault. I should kill you right now ! ''

'' Stop menacing to kill everyone ! "

Porchay felt his head aching... But voices were surrounding him, where the hell was he now ? He slowly opened his eyes, facing a white ceiling. A gentle touch on his arm made him look down ...

'' Shia, Ai Nong Chay ! Porsche, your bro is awake ! "

" P'Kinn.... Hia...? '' Porchay coughed.

'' Chay ?! ''

Porsche almost jumped on his little brother body, he was so weak, almost boneless. How could his little brother be so skinny ?

'' Fuck you Chay, do you fucking know how worried I was ?! "

Tankhun moved Porsche away and he hugged Chay too.

What the hell was happening ?