my inner demon(Caius volturi love)(completed/ being edited)

I swear on the river on Styx

Song for this chapter:

Come around- papa roach

I've been at camp for todays. And I spend most of the time laying in bed more depressed than i thought I would be. It's like I can't focus without Caius... pathetic, I need a man to feel howl.

The sound of the pink potty(yes i said potty i have a 6-year nephew so potty is a very common word in my house. lol) 'why the hell is the toilet pink? Isn't there enuff pink in this pink hades of a place.' i thanka as I wash my hands in the pink sink. "Gods I'm really starting to hate pink.'' I walk out of the bathroom and start to go back to my bed. When I hear Draw walk in with one of her flunkies. "Omg gods what the hades are you wearing." she almost yells looking at my outfit. A very baggy gray sweatshirt and sweatpants are also baggy. "i say nothing as I go to move to my buck but Draw says. "You look like a cow in that, then again that's probably why what was it Klaus, no Caius, what kind of name is that? I bet he was just trying to get in your pants and when he did, he was like 'I've had better and went to someone else." I feel my eyes water at that. "That's not true. And what makes you think he was cheating.." draw smiles as me. "you talk in your sleep when your not screaming." only I hadn't realized I was screaming in my sleep until this morning and it walks me up. "Piper was tilling use to keep our mouth shut but really it's no surprise that he cheated you're the ugliest and fattest of us all in the cabin. I really don't think mom is ur mom she just felt bad for you.' i keep my head down as tears start to fall. "Then again i bet ur not loved at all."

I can't take it anymore and I run without even stopping to put my shoes on. As I run I can hear draw laughing and her little friends too. What a bitch.

I run for the only place I can think of that I won't be bothered. And that is the woods. So I run in for 30 minutes until I make it to a tree and climbed it. And I make it halfway to the top. And stop so I can cry more. I'm crying so much I don't even hear something flying at me.

I feel something hit me in the back and I fall forward with a cry of fear. and I feel my body come to a sudden stop it hits the ground and I feel as if my body breaks. And I see Festus the dragon, flying off as my eyes start to blare.

Flashback

"I can't do this, I can't go back. It's awful he wants nothing to do with me." I Say as I talk to Sarah a red hair green eyes girl, with a tamper just as fiery as her hair seeing as her dad is Ares. "Girl stays here we are about to fight Kronos and you know you wanted here more than there." Sarah said as she moves some red hair from her face and looks at the camper practicing their fighting. for the upcoming war. "I was thinking about it, charlie won't ever know I'm gone." it quit until Sarah says "you know I what you're doing." I have to do an idea of what she talking about. "What are you talking about, has the heavy metal music finally gone to your head." I laugh."but she doesn't. "Why so serious?" I ask. Ask to bump my shoulder with hers in a playful way.

"You been missing meals." I shrug my shoulders, as I see Annabeth di-arm some random kids from the Hermes cabin. "Not been hungry." she looks at me with a worried look. "Once or twice I can see it 3 days in a role. In all honesty, I had just started a stick diet. And just have been into food lately. I have so many rules now. I just don't find the time to eat. I drink so much water I'm never hungry so why eat when you're not hungry? "I'm fine," I say as I talk a drink from my camp half-blood water bottle.

"And that, your drinking water like your a fish." I laugh. "I'm fine I'm just on a diet and I'm not been hungry lately. I swear I'm if I see I have some kind of problem you'll be the first person I come to." she nods as this "you better. Cause you know I'm always here for you. And when you came around I'll be there for you."I smile at her as the conge sound like its dinner time, "and to show you I'm fine, let's get dinner." Sara laughs. ' i can dig that." I gave her a look. "What?" and we start to laugh

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"I think we are making a dint," I yell over to Sarah as I'm fighting a harpy. "Hey you do not say that it always backfires on us," she says as she dills the final blow to her own harpy. The gold dust floats on her face. I'm about to impale my harpy when I hear."

KARI LOOK OUT." but as I stab the harpy and she deserves, I hear a growl and a cry of pain.

I turn to see a hellhound turn to gold and Sarah fall to the ground with a hole in her side from the hellhound's bite. "OH GODS, NO." I cry. Lucky there was no monster attacking at the moment. I pick her up and hold her close as i cry. "I'm fine." she says as she looks at the gold dust. "hey, I thank we made a dint." I laugh. "Yeah look like it." I cry as I see her going pale from blood loss. "you no." she says as she is looking at the sky with tries in her eyes. "I always thought you could be a model." she laughs. "What," I ask in as more try-off. "I always thought you were a paertist of your sibling." I cry more. She always told me how i was so pretty and I never believed it. As she was the only one that ever said it, but here she is on her death bed still trying to build me up. "Don't let anyone tell you anything different. As long as you feel beautiful that's all that matters."

"Ok, don't worry, I think I'm pretty." she shakes her head. "No, you don't. Why do you thank i till you every day, I know you don't see it as I do. I wish I look like you and one day you'll find that one person that makes you feel it too. You're my sister even if we don't have the same parents. And I love you." she starts to have trouble breathing. "I love you to, your more of a sister than my own." thank the light leaves her eye forever.

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It's a month after the 2nd titan war. I just have eaten when I do I throw it up and I can barely focus on anything other than food even it a can't keep it down. Sara's words echo in my head. "I always thought you could be a model." "i know you don't see it as I do." "Don't let anyone tell you anything different. As long as you feel beautiful that's all that matters."

And the thing is i don't feel party. And I can not see me how she did. I've been losing weight and I've noticed more people are tell me I look pretty, even had charlie say it once. And it started from there, the more weight I lost the more I get until they all stopped and I just tried even harder to get them.

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With that, it leads me to Bella's wedding and my fainting if I had been a heathy weight I may not have gotten so sick. But I can't complain if I hadn't. I would have moved in with the Cullens and i would have never met Caius.

Oh, Sarah i just can't bring myself to hate him. Even after finding him in bed with his ex. Even with that he made me feel love like I have felt since you my friend not even Bella or piper have made me feel this love, and now I'm going to die and I will never see him again.

Maybe Sarah if I hard try to get better when it first came out maybe I wouldn't be here. Maybe i would not have been so count up in making you proud of me for feeling pretty. Look at me making it sound like it's your fault. Don't worry i know it's not at all yours but mine. And I swear on the river on styx I will get better.

As I lose conches I swear I hear Caius. Oh, gods, I wish it was him. Oh, how I wish.

Note:

The god I cried like a baby writing this chapter. Laugh if you want. But go back and pitch Sarah as your best friend. Yeah, hole new ballpark now right?