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Chapter 62. "Two Broken Hearts."

Before she left, she stared long after Gracch, who had rushed to get game for the stubborn old man. She lied to Medunica. What could she do if even healers don't know the cure for heartbreak.

Erin Hunter "Warrior Cats."

I feel like every time I start my story, I ask you a question I don't know the answer to myself...

- What is heartbreak?

What is it like to be broken and feel nothing but a longing to end your life?

Every day all I can think about is this, yes, you might think I'm crazy and I can say you'd be right, I'm dead, but only morally, and that's much scarier than the physical pain...

It's been a month since I last saw Edmund... every time I close my eyes I see him, and he's in my head forever and I'll never get him out of there...

he's mine and I must be his...

My life is totally different, I moved to Italy, yes, it sounds weird, but for now I'm here for the next couple of months, as Oswald is here for work and as his spouse I have to be with him...

You're probably wondering how my relationship with him came about.
It's simple, I'm his daughter and he's my father...

Our relationship didn't go far because I'm always depressed and only the sea, wine and music saves me...

I have no contact with my parents, I explained to them that I wanted to go away for a long time without calling, communication and the like, I want to be alone and they supported me ...

I never saw Henry, call me a bitch, I won't mind, because I am, I wrote him a letter and asked his mother to give it to him... I will also share this letter with you...

"My dear and most devoted friend Henry, I know you will be surprised to receive a letter from me and perhaps you would like to see me because you knew I was here at home, but, I am too cowardly and weak to look you in the eye... I am very ashamed of my behavior for what I did to you, you did not deserve it at all, but I hope and wish you find true happiness... you deserve it.

You are very dear to me and you are forever in my heart as the kindest and brightest person I ever had in my life....

Yes, I lied to you, I married Edmund Wright then, I didn't want to tell you about it because I knew you would be upset and not understand me at all... I guess I did it because I fell in love with him at first sight, and I was running away from my home life, I wanted freedom and happiness, unfortunately it didn't last long it ended very quickly and of course I am sorry it happened that way, but everything is for the best... we broke up, the wedding was fake, our ways parted like ships at sea... I don't want to remember those moments, I just want to tell you the truth... Now my life has changed dramatically, I've moved to another country and I have no intention of going back... You don't have to look for me, nobody knows where I am... I've come to the conclusion that it's time to start my life anew, and I think it's the right thing to do...
I want you to forget me and be happy... I wish you all the best and the best in the world. Be happy my dear friend named Henry!
With best wishes,

your Joanna Morris❤"

And so ended another story, only not of love, but of friendship... I will always be grateful to Henry, he really was real and sincere with me, and nowadays it is the most valuable thing to have a real and devoted friend...

Do I know how Edmund is doing, sort of yes and sort of no. Sometimes I try to eavesdrop on Oswald and Tony's conversation, they get in touch quite often, but I don't really understand it... as I understand it, Edmund moved from San Francisco to New York and sort of set up his life there...