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Chapter 83. "Egoist Thoughts."

"The illusion of deception.
I don't understand why people love? Why do we fall in love? Because love only brings us pain. Love hurts a lot. Every time you find the right person, something goes wrong. Every time, you step on the same rake... And you lose your trust. The moral of life is, you love, they don't love you. And I'm convinced millions, millions of times, that you don't need to appreciate, you don't need to cherish, you need to be selfish. Being selfish is like having a bulletproof vest that not even the strongest bullet can penetrate. Every time you fall in love with a person, the person ends up in pain."

Rahib Sabziev Sh.

On behalf of Edmund:

In the past, I've always held this stance, "Why love if love brings pain?"

I always valued loneliness and thought that feeling was my true and only friend, but that wasn't always the case... my life began to change when it began to have people who played a big role in my life, it all started with Viviana, that same italian girl who gave me a taste of that very love, but I tasted her I thought it was not mine and left the brunette, even though I knew very well that I broke her heart ... but I could not lie to her, I always thought it is better to tell a bitter truth than a sweet lie, I think we are the same here.

Soon, I met Sandra, I always thought of her as my friend and nothing more, she and Sean were family to me, but sadly, Sandra didn't think so and simply fell in love with me, yes, I gave up and went for it, we spent hot days and nights with her, but, I had nothing for her, no fire in my heart and I really thought it would never light up... When I met Stacy nothing changed, I just felt sorry for her, she was working hard and I felt the need to help her, not knowing that I would break someone's heart again, we were with Stacy for a short time, although according to her we were always together, but I quickly got tired of her... my stale heart won out and I left her, but I didn't leave her, and because I felt sorry for her, I bought her everything she needed to live and I don't regret it at all, her coming into my life had some effect on me too and I am very grateful for it.

And everything would have been fine and probably this story would not have been written if not for one "but", namely one meeting in the parking lot of Target, that cloudy day when I met Joanna Morris, a closed, brash and somewhere rude brown-haired, but very sincere and kind at heart, she immediately fell in my heart, though I did not show it...

Yes, our relationship began very strangely, and of course I did not believe in it, I knew about the "wedding", that all this is a formality and we will pass the time and we will part, but, apparently, the universe had other plans for us, since it brought us together again and again...

With each time I saw Joanna something strange happened in my heart, I can't describe it in words, because the feeling is inexplicable, but I certainly had not experienced anything like that before.

Why, you may ask, did I set all this up then? Why? If I met the one who was able to change my mind and make me understand that love exists...

I can't give an exact answer, stress, drugs, alcohol it all broke me down, turned me into a nightmare, I stopped feeling alive and real, stopped perceiving reality, it was like I was lost in space and then, I decided to play, probably all this I lacked as a child, so I decided to do it at a conscious age.

Of course, Aaron came to my aid, he decided to come up with a game with letters, with the ceremony, which of course I did not want and could not even imagine it, but, he told me so, "if we play it to the end and beautiful", I decided not to go against him and agreed, Vivi found out about my existence already before the ceremony, she was not even surprised, because she was sure that I was alive.

On the other hand, I don't really regret what I did because I got to know the people who were around me, I realized everything and I'll talk to them separately so to speak and give them an unexpected surprise...

I'm very sorry that Joanna was hurt because of me, but at the same time I couldn't tell her the truth, though I thought she would understand anyway, but nothing can be changed...

The only thing I want is to live peacefully, as before, only now surrounded by the closest of my family and Joanna, I do not need anything else, I spent too many years leading a dissipated life, too much drinking and spending time in clubs, too many meetings with women and too much use of forbidden substances ... Now, it's all in the past, there is no more Edmund Wright, who everyone called Selfish, no, that womanizer and bachelor, the man who had a heart of stone and did not let anyone close to him, now there is a new Edmund Wright, the one who was always supposed to be.

My life has changed, it is as it should have been, and I am grateful to fate that it has brought me together with Joanna.

And the happiest thing that could have happened to me besides meeting my beloved was that I would soon be a father, is there anything better than that?

The best stories are the ones that end with a happy ending...

- Edie! - Joanna called me.

- Yes, my beautiful birdie!

- We have to leave for the airport.

- Are you sure you don't want to stay?

- I think it would be better to go home now.

- I love you," I went over to her and kissed her sweet lips.

- And we love you! - She smiled and we got in the car and headed to the airport.

***

From Tony's behalf:

I am back in the States, to say that I was glad, probably nothing to say, as there is nothing like home and I make sure of that every time I go somewhere.

Today is a pretty important day, as I'm going into the office and I'll be the first day as the boss of the firm, I hope I do well. Uncle Oswald has his hopes up for me and I can't let him down...

Stacy stays to work for me, I feel sorry for her and I can't take her like that and do bad things to her.

Putting on my best suit, I took one last look in the mirror, smiled to myself and said, "Anthony Wright, you're the head of the company now! You're going to do great! - I winked and went to my car.

When I got to the office, the employees were already meeting me at the entrance.

- Good morning, Mr. Wright! Welcome to the office! - Everyone was smiling at me.

- Good morning, my dears! I'm glad to be with you today!

- Boss, are you going to change the work schedule and the staff? Or shall we leave everything as it is? - The young guy asked me.

- Give me some time, I have to take it all in, figure out what works and how it works and then I'll have a meeting and come back to you. All right?

- Whatever you say. - He smiled.

I went to my office and on the way I met Stacy.

- You here yet?

- Yes, boss. - She grinned," Will you promote me? - She came up to me and pulled my tie.

- Honey, wait, give me time. But, I promise I'll give you a promotion. - I winked and went into the office...

- I'm so glad you came, Mr. Wright. Otherwise, I've been waiting for you. - The man turned to me and it was Edmund, - I just wanted you to read my resume, I want to work for you! - He smiled slyly...

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