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Chapter 82. "Dracula."

I have been a master for so long that I will continue to be one-or at least no one will ever be my master.

Bram Stoker's Dracula.

- What are you doing here? - I asked Dracula.

- I came for a meeting, I take it with you...

- But, I was waiting for my "friend," I made a quotation mark in the air.

- I think you were supposed to meet me after all... - He took my hand, and we sat down on the bench. - Is that him? - Dracula asked, pointing to the grave.

- "Yes," I said quietly.

- "Do you miss him?

- I miss him very much. - I said, and tears streamed down my cheeks. "If I could talk to him, I would tell him everything, everything that was going on in my soul... I miss him so much.

- I can understand you, I'm lonely too.

- Have you lost someone?

- Well, how can I say it, myself, I guess...

- Why are you in a mask and in character again?

- I was playing," he grinned, "I just didn't have time to change...

- So take it off now...

- Is that what you want?

- Yes, I want to know the real you!

- Edmund... I know him. - He looked at me. - He and I have known each other for a long time, he is strong in spirit and body, but who would have believed that he could be broken...

- I don't understand you, why are you talking about him like that? How do you know him?

- It's a very long story, Joanna!

- What is your name?

- Too many questions and so few answers, aren't there?

- Yes, you're right, I've always asked life questions and never got an answer from it. I don't know why my life was built like this, I fell in love for the first time and probably forever with one man and he ended up leaving me, going there to heaven, you can't even imagine how hard it is for me. And then there's this baby... I made the decision to have an abortion! - I said, and then he grabbed my hand and put it to his heart.

- Can you feel my heartbeat?

- Yes," I said tearfully.

- That's how your baby's heart is beating right now.

- You do not even understand how hard it will be for me, no one will help me, my parents have their own life, they do not need me, just like their friends who are there today and gone tomorrow. I can't do that with a baby in my arms!

- You say life doesn't answer your questions, maybe it has decided to do just that through this child?

- He's not Edmund's, and that's not even the point, I've already made up my mind...

- You don't think it's the baby that's afraid? I mean, he hears everything and he's crying now too, he knows his own mother doesn't want him, isn't that the scariest thing? But the worst thing is to realize that he will be killed, that he will never live again and he will never see the light of day. A child is not to blame for anything, and believe me, when God wills it, he sends a child, not to be killed, but to be born, given life and nurtured. Do you think Edmund would support you now?

- If Edmund were alive, things would be different...

- You didn't answer my question.

- He probably wouldn't have given it because he wanted children himself, but, I'm nothing without Edmund... and anyway, why are you calling the shots in my life? Sitting here in your Dracula costume, lecturing me! Why am I even sitting here with you? I came here for another meeting, please leave me alone, I want to talk to my late husband. - I was angry that Dracula had left...