Love, Temptation, and Secrets

Chapter 13

Chapter 13

(Neya)

Life has been great since moving to New York. I went back to school and got my masters in criminal justice. Now I work for Melissa. Since the four years that went by Candi and I are married and Becky is in rehab right now. She started doing drugs so I put her away that was the hardest thing ever. She aborted the baby she was pregnant with before. I hope that she is getting the help she needs. But I still write to her all the time even though she never responds. When I placed her in rehab the last words that came out her mouth was I hate you. That really broke my heart but I know she doesn't mean it. It was my lunch break and after almost a year of her being in rehab they were finally letting her have visitors. She also had dropped out of high school in her senior year. I walked through the doors and after a minute a woman lead me to her room. She opened the door and the women walked off I stood there for a minute because she was singing. I had no idea she could sing. She was singing dance with my father by Luther Vandross. I shut the door and she jumped a little bit. She looked at me and then walked up to me giving me a hug. This really warmed my heart and we stood there crying and hugging for a minute. She then led me to sit on the bed. She gave me another hug then started talking.

Becky: I've missed you so much mommy

Neya: I've missed you too and why you never told me you could sing

Becky: I don't know it never came up and sorry for not returning your letters I just wanted to talk to you in person and not on a piece of paper. We never to talk about the things and the stuff that Cory did to me but I'm ready now

Neya: I'm listening

Becky: it started when I was six it was the night you went to Vegas and you left me with dad for a week. I was too young to understand then but I know it was wrong but that night he told me all father and daughters do this. He touched me and all I wanted to do was cry and he told if he cried he would spank me I did and he did spank with a extension cord the next day he did it again and I didn't cry because I didn't wanna get spank again I also never told you because he said he would kill you. The years went on one day I told him I was a lesbian and he raped me this time without a condom. That's when I got pregnant. I only lied and said the baby was David because I needed a guy to claim it so you wouldn't know what dad was doing to me. I aborted the child because I couldn't go through with having the kid knowing it belong to dad. He told me being gay was wrong and a bunch of other stuff and I'm sorry I never told you about me being a lesbian but I really did want too and I went so hard for Annie because you never noticed me that I was acting strange around dad and you were always busy if you weren't working you was having sex with whatever girl and you barely made time for me and I just wanted to feel loved and I felt that way with Annie until she dumped me but I now understand why and I never meant I hate you I was just unhappy and on drugs but I'm better now and I have two weeks left then I can come home and I wanna go back to school and then become just like you

Neya: Honey I am so sorry. I should have been there for you more and none of this would have happened. I'm a terrible mom it's all my fault

Becky: it's not your fault mommy shit happens it's apart of life i should have told you when I got older and realized things were wrong and your a great mom because you didn't give up on me the way others would have. You stayed by my side. If you wasn't hard on me and put me in rehab I could have died of a overdose or something or been inside some crack house or spiraled out of control and really kill someone and end up in jail. I thank you for being the best mom you knew how to be and not giving up on me. I love you so much mommy

Neya: I love you too baby girl

With that said we started hugging again. I wished I was there for her more as a kid. I was more focused on the women i was dating than her. Maybe if I was there for her more she wouldn't have gotten raped by her own father. What a sick ass bastard. The only reason why I figured he was raping her in the first place because if he did it to Dense then he could have been doing it to other girls. I also seen the way Becky acted with him. She used to beg not to spend the night at her dad's house. I wished I didn't let her. When she gets out of here I'm taking some time off work so we can spend time together and make up for all times we missed together.