Soukoku One shots ( Mostly In Chuuyas Pov)

Why do I try

⚠️ attempt of suicide
Alcohol
Self hate
Mentions of serious wounds
Not taking care of serious injuries
Mentions of self harm
Thoughts of suicide
A rope

Chuuya pov

Sitting on a bar stall in his apartment kitchens. He looks around at the very plain apartment that's has little to no furniture.

He sighs "so plain just like everything else." He takes a sip of his third cup of wine. He knows that he shouldn't really be drinking this much but why should he care about the hangover that he's never going to experience.

He grabs out his phone after taking a sip of the bitter red liquid. He sighs scrolling through all his messages that were from his co-workers. He sighs seeing all the messages over 200 messages.

"This is going to take me a while" he starts reading them just to find out. They are worried about him? Why though he hasn't even done anything. Maybe that's why. Whatever

Why are they even worried about him he's nothing important even though he worked so hard to become a port mafia executive. It never really was that's important. He could easily be replaced. There's nothing special about him.

He's just like a normal person he gets injured just like them. He bleeds just like them. I mean the cuts all over his body proves it.

He has weak emotions like them too. He let his emotions get in the way of his work that's why he's here and not in the office.

He was too focused on the "damn mackerel" as he would like to say. He was so caught up with his thoughts. That he got some pretty bad injuries.

And was forced in to a 2 week vacation by all of his close coworkers. They were nagging him for a good 2 months.

He finally agreed to going on a 2 week vacation. And now its the biggest mistake of his life. It's too plain, so boring, if only he was here it woul- "wait why am I thinking like that, why would I want to be close to him" he doesn't want to near me either. And I don't blame him I wouldn't want to be near a stubborn ass bastard like myself.

Why I'm I still trying to even continue with this empty life. There is no point anymore the only person that I actually want to be near doesn't want to be even close to me. I mean for crying out loud he left me already.

If he just asked me to I would have left with him. The only reason I'm still with the port mafia is because I have no one to turn to.

The only person that I could turn to is Dazai but I know for a fact that he is going to just see me as an annoyance.

There's no point in even trying it's just useless. There's no point in this life or in any other.

The thoughts continue and and all he could do is just listen to them as he drinks his sorrows away.

Soons enough he finish his drink.

"I'm ready" he says to him self.

He gets up and goes into his room where a rope was hanging.

But he can't go just yet he has one more thing to do.

Pov Dazai

He was laying down on the couch in the detective agency.

Listening to his famous song but then a notification interrupted it.

The brown haired man scrambles around for his phone just to resume his music.

As soon as he picks it up he see

Two new messages from Slug

Slug: listen I know this is sudden but I want to thank you for just staying with me when we're younger even though you did leave me.

Slug: goodbye Dazai thank you for being my one and only love.

Wait what .......
What does Chuuya mean
All Dazai knows is that he needs to be with Chuuya.

Mackerel: Hey Chuuya what's again on

Waiting for a response Dazai gets up and grabs his keys.

Slug: Its nothing I just was thinking that's all

The tall brunette rushes out of the building and runs towards the way the Chuuyas apartment building is.

He knows something wrong the he's gut is telling him that Chuuya just lied to him.

He knows Chuuya has always been the type of person who will never talk about his feelings.

Mackerel: Chuuya talk to me what's actually going on

Dazai continue running to the apartment trying to get Chuuya to talk to him.

Slug: nothing is wrong ok just leave me alone.

Mackerel: Chuuya

And just like that Chuuya stop responding. Causing the tall man to go into a panic.

Lucky the last message that Chuuya sent was a second before he entered the stairwell of Chuuyas apartment building.

It took him almost 1 minute and a half to get up to the 5th floor.
( Idk man I don't causally run up stairs idk how long it would take )

As soon as he makes it to the 5th floor he run all the way to Chuuyas apartment.

And without even knocking he runs into the apartment.

The dred began to sink in the went to Chuuya's room.

His room was partially open .

Dazai show a shadow that's was on a chair.

.....

He ran into the room just to see Chuuya standing on the chair with a rope around his neck.

Lucky not hanging.

( A/n my to lazy to finish this right now (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧)