Solace

One month in biggboss

The place is bleak, cold and very dimly lit. It is quiet and somber in here and I felt a chill as the darkness engulfed me.

It was the most piercing darkness ever-it was not merely the darkness that came out of absence of light, it was much more sinister. I wonder why is the house so dimly lit today ...... it's almost next to complete darkness .......

The dense and dark atmosphere was impenetrable and I stood rooted to the spot, trying to stretch my eyes as wide as possible but I could barely makeout a feeble outline of some distant object.

There is nothing warm about this place. It smelled of something evil and the darkness was surreal. Cold and clammy I tried to creep out but it was futile, I was neither in nor out-too terrified to move lest I make a loud racket.

( But somehow he had managed to reach the sofa in the outer area and sat there with one hand on the armrest, while the other was moving on the head trying to soothe the head ache he was having ....... Legs crossed and put on the teapoy in the front and head arched at the back .... resting on the backrest of sofa ...... )

Well talking of the negative  vibes ...... the feeling of evil ...... well ..... I know why I am feeling like this ...... it's because of her presence .....

Her mere presence is enough to make me uncomfortable ....... and .... and ..... since the last few days toh she has been trying to get close and so touchy ......

It really makes me feel very uncomfortable ...... I have tried to avoid her, tell her politely to stay away ..... But either she is not getting me or maybe just pretending to not get me ...... and most importantly ..... I .... I cannot understand what is she upto .....

On one hand in the first week ...... infront of the entire house and media and 250 cameras she was daily accusing me of having cheated on her when we were in a relationship ...... and accusing me of getting involved with my co- star of the series I was shooting at that time ......

Phir pata nhin kyun yogita entered the house in the second week and she tried to get close to me ...... trying to console me ...... I thought she was just trying to be there for me as a good friend ...... and I let her come close as I badly needed someone .......

I really needed someone to confide in ....... someone who could become my sanity and solace in this mad house ...... as things and situations were really getting onto my nerves ......

Yes, I knew that it is not going to be easy to stay here in the show ...... I also knew that this house is mad and it puts you in the most trivial situations ..... also to add to it you are kept away from all outside connections and news .....

So, basically we actually have no one to give us any sort of advice or suggestions ....... Whatever decision we take here is the actual decision and opinion that we have or either it is influenced by the house mates itself ......

Based on these reactions and decisions of ours and how well we play the task and entertain the audience ...... The audience casts votes for us to save us from nominations and make one of us the winner .......

One month in this house has taught me a lot about myself, the human nature and also that I underestimated this house and its madness ...... Staying here is a hundred times more difficult than what I had thought ......

Out of the many things one was that I am scared of being lonely and also falling in love ....... But at the same time I have already fallen for someone and that too in a very serious way ....... I was totally bowled over ......

Yaa and that someone is none other than bholu ....... Or should I say the itv queen ...... The Tejasswi Prakash ........ It was her whom I wanted as my sanity and solace not only here in the house but for life ....... It was her in whom I wanted to confide .......