its the next day he behaves as usual like himself busy in his work didn't talked to me just had breakfast which i cooked and left .
i have decided now what i have to do this time.
i am going to confess my feelings for him and rest is upto him to accept me as her official gf or not ,
i can't be his side chick or a girl he can fuck whenever he wants ,treat however he likes , i just can't ....
only i know how it feels after everytime getting physical he always left me without comforting me without saying a word like i am some whore and i don't mean anything to him.
i want to know what i mean to him , i want to know my place in his life ,i want to know all that he has done with me ,was this just for fun or it also meant something for him .
i know the way he treats me shows he has no feelings for me but i don't want to accept that atleast till he himself say it on face , i want him to clear all of it to me .....
i wish he says that he loves me too ...or atleast have some feelings towards me .
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geez ...
tonight ..i am gonna tell him everything ,i will pour my heart out rest is upto you god ,please i want nothing from you just his feelings for me.. please please please .. god i am so childish
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time was literally crawling like a snail , i am waiting for him to come back from his work , i couldn't focus on anything the whole day , i have prepared special dinner tonight his favorite spicy chicken noodles ,i will say everything at the dinner .
my heart is beating like crazy . i hope it doesn't pop out of my rib cage.
you got dressed up in your favourite red backless dress with double slits on both side your hair in sexy high bun , did a light makeup with red bold lipstick .
watching time in between waiting eagerly for him
damn i want this night to be perfect ,i wish he ll be in good mood today .
you heard some noise.
he's here finally.
you ran towards the hall and stopped after seeing him loosening his tie .
damn why is so hot and intimidating at once .
he eyed you from top to bottom giving you chills .
you took a deep breath ,trying to maintain your composure .
"h ..hi" you hated yourself for stammering you want to look confident .
"where the fuck you going?" he asked walking towards his room to get freshen up not waiting for your reply .
you followed him .
"c can we eat dinner together today i cooked y your favo-"
"no" he cut you while walking into his walkin wardrobe
you waited for him to come out ,you didn't want to postpone your confession .
i will do it today no matter what , i have made up my mind.
he came out in his grey comfy sweats.
looking dreamy .
"why are you still here get out , i ll have dinner in my room today "
"please i need to talk to you about something very important ...please please please" you pleaded jumping .
"about what?"
"not here ,please come with me "
he sighed being annoyed and then got up
"you better not waste my time "
"yes i won't " your eyes sparkle of excitement .
you took him to terrace where you have prepared whole candle light dinner with beautiful scented candles ,fairy lights it was looking even better than you imagined .
you looked at him to see if he liked it or not and mr. no. 2 hero has no expressions on his face .
he sat on chair you served him his meal very excitedly and you sat in front of him watching his expression to get any hints of his mood .
but still he has no expressions he just kept eating .
"do you like it ?" you asked breaking the silence after a while .
"what's all this ?" he just asked not looking at you .
"it's a dinner date "
he raised his one brow at word date .
"i ..i mean i needed to tell you something"
..god save me .
you took one deep breath again trying to bring your heartbeat at normal since you can't focus on anything while all you can hear your own heartbeat .
"listen katsuki i wanted to tell you that I LOVE YOU and i really mean it .
all those things happened between us i want to know if all those things also mean to you in the same way they mean to me the way i feel when you touch me ,the way i feel when you kiss me the feelings i get when you are inside me , the way my heart beats when you look at me with your crimson red eyes , do you also feel butterflies when you see me as i feel , do you also care about me even a little bit , do you also feel like being with me 24×7 as i want to be with you , do you also want to spend future with me as i want to , i want to say you mean everything to me , i can do anything for you because I LoVE YOU .
I LoVE YOU katsuki bakugou "
your heart is now beating at it's highest pace ,you are out of your breath now .
i did it ,i cant believe i did it .
you said all these things looking into his eyes , all this while he was looking at you with blank expressions frozen at his place .
wind blew by , your hair flowing and his gorgeous blond hair also waving .
you both looking at each others eyes.
you lips part waiting for him to say something .
he burst into laughter .
what?
you can't believe your eyes he started laughing like crazy , holding his stomach like it was all a joke .
your eyes became teary .
"what's so funny?" you asked your voice breaking .
"i knew you were a dumbass but you were this crazy i never imagined ..."
he said between his laugh trying to hold his laughter .
"fuck man that was the cheesiest shit i ever heard "
you can't believe anything right now you never imagined even once he will make fun of your feelings like this .
"love pfttt... have you lost your mind , i fuck sluts like you everyday but not gonna lie this was literally the funniest shit ever heard ,all of them tried their best in seducing me to be with them but you nailed i am gonna give you that " he continued his laughing
tears rolling down your eyes ,you couldn't take it anymore you got up and ran towards your room closing the door crying and screaming in agony .
you started scratching your arms giving yourself physical pain to overcome your mental pain you even pulled your hair , cutting your inner thighs with sharp knife .
you sat beneath the shower blood dripping your legs and scratched shoulders messed hair smudged mascara , cursing yourself .
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