The Winner Takes It All

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I walked back to the hotel and took the elevator straight to Val's floor. I took a deep breath as i knocked on the door, why was i nervous?

There was no reason for me to be nervous other than the fact i just kissed his teammate in his motorhome.

Ye, thats an understandable reason.

Do i tell him?

Nope.

I should.

"Hey, you took your time," he smiled as he opened the door for me.

Ye because i was too busy with Lewis.

"I want pickles." I replied tossing my work on the side table and kicking off my shoes.

"Pickles?" He puzzled.

"I love pickles, my emotional support food and actually favourite food in general."

"Is this an emotional support craving of pickles?" he asked, concern showing on his face.

"Ye i just had an argument with Max. Absolutely loving life." i sighed.

"Wait an argument with Max, are you ok?" He wrapped his arm around my shoulder.

In that moment, I collapsed into Valtteri's embrace, tears streaming down my face. From hugging him to sobbing into his chest, I couldn't hold back anymore. All at the mention of 'are you ok?'. He held me tight and swayed me side to side, not saying anything, just being there for me.

He pressed a kiss to my forehead and i looked up at him, my eyes all puffy, "I'm sorry." I murmured.

"I refuse you to be sorry. Come here." he said, leaning my head back against his chest.  "Stupid arguments happen in this sport all the time. I know. Max will be over it by Tuesday and I'm sure it was over nothing, he was just tired from that long race."

"It wasn't over nothing. It was over you." I sniffed and he stopped swaying.

"What do you mean?"

I took a shaky breath, "He said I compromised our race by sleeping with you, and Horner overheard and i feel like I'm either going to lose you, or lose my job, or lose my friend, or lose something."

"Woh, you are not going to lose anything. Nothing bad will happen i promise." He squeezed my shoulder slightly.

"I'm just proving Horner right. I am a whore, Lewis, you. He has every right to just kick me out right now."

"Wait, Lewis?" Val's expression went cold.

Oh no. That just slipped out. Shit.

"Horner was convinced i had something with Lewis after we took one plane ride back from Barcelona together. He was trying to prove a point and kissed me." I felt a tear fall down my cheek, "I ran out the garage after arguing with Max and then he was there. Invited me in for a cuppa and then we ended up kissing. No offence to him, but i was not emotionally stable enough to be thinking straight and I've made a bad mistake."

Double shit. I realized I had revealed too much, and Val was staring at me with a blank face while tears streamed down my cheeks.

He finally spoke, "Well, was he a good kisser?"

"Pardon?" I said, trying to wipe away my tears.

"I mean, you can say yes, and I'd agree with you," he replied, rolling his eyes and laughing.

Oh at least he agrees with me, Lewis is a - wait what did he just say.

"Wait- woh woh woh. How do you know that?" I smirked, moving away from his grasp and sitting on the edge of the bed.