Shattered With Love

Simple Things

There's a part of me you'll never understand

The part of me that holds on too tight

Fear of letting go

Fear that you will run away

No one has ever truly stayed

My heart gets the best of me

Then I tend to suffocate the ones I love

When I deny them of the simple things

The ones they once had

But they never understood

The way those simple things effected me

The way my blood would boil

And I would bite my tongue to hold it back

I've tried to play it off as if it's nothing

Pretend that I am okay

Instead I'm left feeling rage

And even more so, feeling hurt

My bite my tongue and sink my nails into my own skin

To hold back the word and the tears I'm so desperate to say

Do you miss those simple things?

What if they mean more to you than I ever will?

You might see them as nothings

Might see me as crazy and obsessed

I do not choose the way it drives me mad

The way I feel better off dead

Cause' really those things are just simple right?

Why should they create this God awful feeling?

I'll never understand how a scroll of the phone will make me think and feel this way

Or why I can't stand to be away from you for too long

I've always been alone

It's nothing new, nothing I haven't been through

I face it time and time again

Hoping it might feel at ease

Maybe begin to better

But each time it only worsens

It is not about the trust or lack there of

It isn't a cry for help or attention

I love to deeply

Too strongly

From the love I lacked during youth

From the loneliness I grew up knowing

It's hard to be happy when it isn't a common feeling

Hard to allow space when you've been alone too long

You have given away a great amount

Will it be something you regret?

Do your ways haunt you?

I want to take us further but...afraid

Afraid it won't work because of me

Because of who I am..

The way I am

I hope one I'll day

Til' then I'll watch and wait

And hopefully I am not your mistake