Finding myself

A tribute to my Taylor Swift year

22.
Twenty two has been a roller coaster of emotions. But a year full of adventures!
I started year 22 in sulphur, Louisiana... working at a daycare (I miss it sometimes:')
And I ended 2021 on the road .
It's amazing what a year can do to your soul, how much you were healing but didn't see it until you woke up one random morning and you looked in the mirror and saw this new Version of yourself saying "wow! That actually doesn't bother me as much as it used to" but it's not really random is it?
I mean you had to have done something to be able to say that, right?
Well, for me I went on a road trip in December 2021 with absolutely no plan, no money, I quit my job on a whim of impulsivity and decided I was gonna go and live in my car for a few weeks! And it actually turned out to be one of the best trips of my life!!! I was on the road for what felt like a month but in reality was only two weeks, I had no service in most places I visited so it was a lot of thinking about everything, literally EVERYTHING!!! Very scary to be honest, but when you're alone with yourself and you have no service you tend to think a lot about your trauma, what's made you sad, and then you start talking to the birds (just kidding, welll... kind of I definitely did talk to some birds. They were cute! can you really blame me?) but honestly it's very healing. I cried that whole trip, but I had the absolute best time, and in someway I feel as though that trip changed my life, who I was, what I wanted in life, and who I wanted to be. It healed me in most places I didn't even know were hurt, and for that I will always be thankful.
Twenty two has brought me opportunities and opened new doors I never even considered opening. I moved a lot this year, moved to Lafayette, then traveled for 2 weeks on another road trip (for a job) then quit and I ended up moving to Dallas with my cousin, whom along the way since march has helped me in so many ways and I'll forever be thankful for her.
I've cried a lot this year, been the angriest I think I've ever seen myself to be quite honest, but I've been very blessed overall, and that is all I can wish for anyone. I'm not sure what 23 has in store for me but I sure hope that whatever it is, it will be a good story to tell for year 24.

I'm truly so proud of myself, which is a hard thing for me to say , I've been through a lot and I used to push my emotions to the side and tell myself that people have it way worse and that I really don't have anything to be disappointed, upset and or sad about, but that is not the case, my emotions are validated just as much as anyone else's. This year has taught me it is okay to be emotional because that means you're healing.