Inside Youtube- A Krinx Fanfiction

Chapter 10- Minx

April 10, 2013

You look so perfect standing there

In my American Apparel underwear

And I know now, that I'm so down

Your lipstick stain is a work of art

I got your name tattooed in an arrow heart

And I know now, that I'm so down (hey!)

               

I crept around the corner just in case Krism was lurking. Yesterday had been so much fun, us playing games together like old friends. Even though we'd only known each other for a few days. Two of them she spent locked in her room but still. I had a blast, and for once I felt at ease around her. Normally being around her left me feeling dazed and flushed, but yesterday it felt the same as if I was hanging with Mark or Cry. I felt, well, normal. Krism was like a breath of fresh air in my normally dreary life, and yesterday it felt like I could breathe around her for the first time. I assumed that meant I was getting comfortable around her.

She hadn't done anything to even try to get me back after yesterday; her room was silent, except for the occasional movement. I assumed she was gaming. She didn't even do anything when I was in the bathroom. That's where I thought she would pounce. I needed to get out of my room, if only to go outside and think. I couldn't think inside this house. I needed to think over what I planned to do about all of this. By all of this I meant Krism. Krism, Krism, Krism.

 I was walking downstairs to go outside; I hadn't even explored the backyard yet. I knew that there was a pool but I wasn't aware of anything else. I silently crept down the stairs and into the foyer, walking around to the back door. Everything was silent, so I assumed that everyone was editing or sleeping. We YouTubers had different sleeping habits then normal humans.

 I slipped outside, feeling the cool air on my neck. There was a slight breeze in the air, chilly but nice at the same time. I began to walk and noticed something nice. There was a small garden, with a big fountain and two stone benches. I walked over there, sitting down to test it. The bench was nice, a little hard but nice. That was to be expected from concrete. I slumped back. This was going to be my place; it felt more like home than the mansion. Sitting here I could pretend I was still in England, still at home. America was nice but it just wasn't me. I was a British girl at heart, more stone houses than palm trees. I sighed as I stared at the flowing water in the fountain.

What was I even doing here, why did they want me?  I was nobody. I could die and nobody would care. I sat up immediately. Where had this sudden sadness come from? I was taking my depression meds, I was being good. I must just be having another bad spell of it. I sighed again. Who was I kidding; I knew why this sudden depression bout was here. Krism. She depressed me and excited me all at the same time. It was infuriating. I didn't know what to do. Did I tell her or not? Would she reject me instantly? I scolded myself. I had to tell her, I just had to, even if it killed me. I knew from experience that keeping my feelings inside would just cause them to explode eventually.

I kicked the dirt. I needed to make a pact. That was it! That was what I would do! I would make a pact that I would tell her how I felt sometime in the next week, even if I didn't want to. I just had to get it off of my chest. Even if she rejected me it would be worth it, just to be able to breathe. I wanted her to know, I wanted her. Just thinking about that laugh, that smile, made me almost lose it right then and there. Suddenly I heard a cough. I shot up straight and whipped around. It was Cry and Felix. Cry smiled kindly. "Whatcha thinking about?"